Saturday, June 27

It's all over the everywhere but come on, MICHAEL JACKSON IS DEAD.

EVERYBODY, even the Taliban in Pakistan know he's dead, every.one. knows.

I got on the bus today and 'Blame it on the boogie' was playing while three black kids up the front gave each other fancy hi fives and combed their afros. It was like being in a brooklyn bus in the 80's. For me it was a fitting tribute.

So anyways, this is my take on Michael..

He was an angel that came to earth to share his voice, he inevitably got corrupted on earth and sold his soul to the devil (Quincy functioning as representative), in order to write the best pop music ever made, the pact/seal was the album Thriller (obviously). From which he never recovered.

The devil.. he said, 'Michael, give me your soul and in return youll write the best pop music the world has ever heard..'. Michael agreed, and lost himself, his sanity, his identity, replaced by plastic and artifice, he truly lost his soul, and he did it for the musical wellbeing of mankind.

What Im saying is.. Michael Jackson died for our sins, he sacrificed himself for all of us, he was like.. the musical Jebus.

Amen brother.

Now watch these vids, cuz they didnt come cheap, you owe it to yourself, Michael, and the Devil..





Wednesday, June 24


(I'll be writing a lot more about Love in the future, I feel Love these days is often used as a dirty word, one full of drama and suspicion. To have Love is the same as suffering they say. I disagree. I believe Love is inherently good, and easy and fun, it has been corrupted due to idiots and media, and it needs to be re-appreciated. Love is good. Love is great. As a briefer here is a link to an article from the now defunct Zine 'When Men Were Men' , written by my good friend and associate Rachel W. Link - > "Something very sad has happenned to love")
.. the idea that when you have someone you can have anyone.. that's a problem, people get greedy, if youre having sex every night with your partner and then you make eye contact with a cute girl at a cafe one morning, you think 'damn I could be having sex with her every night instead!' but ITS NOT TRUE!! Odds are that you would not be having any sex for a while, and even if you were, it wouldn't be someone you'd stick with for months, maybe even years!
You are NOT missing out on loads of hot sex, you are just missing out on some occassional and mostly disappointing flirty encounters. Ok girls can probably have sex with guys more easily than guys and that's why when you're a guy it really hurts, because its a fact, its easier for girls to have sex with people, they make the decision.. but I digress, point is, mostly youre not missing out on anything by being with someone, only very occassionally. But the question mark shows up sometimes when you make eye contact, and its very alluring! Let it go. Forget it. Enjoy who you have as much as you can for as long as you can. That doesn't mean don't pash anyone, don't flirt, don't play with your sexuality... it just means don't think youre being obligated or constrained by your partner, that's an illusion, its all you.
The key is Surrender. Give up. Give up the outcome. Give up and you'll get Slack.
If you have a fear, there is often a fear of fear, because you worry that by fearing something you will actually create it, hence there is this second level fear, a fear of being afraid. Which is even worse.

What can one do when we have those moments where we think the worst, then worry that by thinking the worst we may have given that outcome power, fueled this fear with our fear.. what can we do.. the only thing left to do is to fear more, not fear, blow it all out of proportion.

If you're worried about something, make it worse in your head, and worse, as bad as it can possible be and triple it. By this point it will be but a caricature a most unlikely event which will help you get over it. Like when you repeat a word too many times, it stops having any hold on you, it stops making sense. Blowing a fear out of proportion makes it loses its power on you due to its cartoonish impossibility.. and then you breathe, and you're much better again.
Wasting time.

Wasting time, much frowned upon in modern society is actually not that bad,

For when you waste something are you not asserting that you have so much of it that you can afford to throw it away?

I am proud and lucky to be so time rich that I can let it slip through my fingers as if nothing. This is a mind set, and why shouldn't we waste time?

First of all its a bit of a misnomer, 'waste' is the wrong word, but it helps to illustrate my previous economic example. I'm happy to 'waste' time if it involves making silly things, playing with cardboard, experimenting, discussing philosophies with friends, reading novels, forging bonds, making cookies etc..

But! They say..
Shouldn't you be making a living?

Yes, but what IS a living?
A living, is living to a degree you are comfortable with. The more you own, car, house, cable tv etc. The more of a living you have to make, the less time you can afford to waste. But essentially, you are making a living, so that when you're done you can go to the living you've made and enjoy your time, however it may be: play with it, chat, create, enjoy, all these things which a content and happy time waster is actually doing already anyway.

Michael Ende, John Lennon and I agree: Time enjoyed is never ever time wasted.

There will be plenty of time leftover to make a home, create things, sell them, study, forge a career etc etc, later, it happens, organically, but to force it, to feel guilty about not being productive, is bad for the spirit. Feel no shame when being idle! And always rest on the Sabbath!

Sunday, June 7

When you do things right, people wont be sure youve done anything at all.

Monday, June 1

Im making a new zine called 'God is laughing at us', its been in the works for ages, basically ramblings between me and my best friend Rachel. Im gonna post some of those on here every few days, you'll know they're for the zine cuz they'll be in italics and bold.