Hi!

So you liked my link Austin, i knew you would!





Ok, so a quick one today, umm ok today is new years eve! Yay! 2003 sucked, well it was ok, it was a hardcore learning year, and hopefully 2004 won't continue that way because im sick of learning lessons and want to have fun (not that i haven't tho). Ok I guess i should come up with some resolutions... They will beee...

*Save money to travel and stuff.

*Go on tour.

*Whinge less.

*Make new and exciting friends.

*Eat more meat.

*Do more stuff and smoke less pot.

There you have it, Pablo's new years resolutions, exciting huh?

What else, ah, today is fucked, at work i've already taken over 80 phone calls, and it isn't even 2:00 yet!!! AGH! it's so busy, and it sends me mental, i really get funny in the head, i start thinking weird and stressing and getting stomach pains and stuff, i think it's stress, but damn you'd get stressed too if you had 100 people complaining about money all day, and anyway if everything is energy then they must leave some sort of energy residue on us cusomer service/ telemarketer types, wouldn't they? I dunno.. i think i should make a movie called "The Telemarketer" surpringly enough, about a "Telemarketer" that's had too much and goes on a klling rampage and at the end he gets killed in front of his loved ones and it's all really sad and i get a grammy.

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This is a picture of a chimp, some people say i look like a chimp, that's cool, chimps are cool, i dig.

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This is a picture of a girl wearing meat, it was in the newspaper, i don't dig, but in a weird way, i dig too.

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Word of the month : Sluzza

Alternative terms for "Sluzza" : Schluzza, Slurry, Slapper, Scrubber, Snapper, Scrapper, Schluz.. etc.

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Nancy Fucking Vandal





This gig ruled, it was exactly what i needed, it had "vibe" and if you've been to gigs lately you'd have noticed that "vibe" seems to be missing a lot, these guys had it, it was like old skool gigging again, heaps of old skool people were there, Hoju #8, Austin, Megan & I skanked our asses off. Simo didn't, but he did take the nice snaps, so cheers!.

Nancy Vandal, were rocking, funny, sharp and witty, and Gilli Pepper is a babe, i don't know exactly why but she just is.

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Is this a thorough post or what? Nice one! Agh, im in lunch right now, tonight im going to the city and getting off my head for new years eve (like, who isn't?), 2004 is going to be a very interesting year, trust me.

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Conspiracy Corner : You enjoyed this one austin, so this is the first of many, i suggest you read it (everyone) it gives you a good platform to what is going on, it was written by Jon Rapport of NoMoreFakeNews. Now, you might miss some of it, but read it, everything is kinda deep.. (This has been relocated, it is the first article of "An Unkempt Aardvark, link on your right.)

There you go kids! That's it for today! Bye! Happy New Years!

There's so much i'd like to say but i dont have the time, a couple of things but.

This is a link for Austin, i don't know what it is but i heard it's good, i can't go to it from work.

http://windward.nodalpoint.net/doc/bonnasses/


Quote of the day : "God obviously doesn't send angels to Parramatta." - Bombshell

Thought of the day : "It's not what, it's how."

Im feeling trapped, everyone is, we do it ourselves, but i just want to be in a van travelling to a destination, free from any thoughts about money or problems or bullshit.

It's all good, im not complaining.

There's just so much i want to do..

I'm sure i will one day. I hope. I reckon there's something looking after me, maybe it's me, maybe it's my friends, maybe it's something else, it's probably all of the above. So i'm sure there's lots of fun tasty stuff to come, it just sucks that i have to put up with the crap before it, tho if it wasnt for the crap i wouldnt know what is good. And the crap is the good gone old, see, my job, is something i'd be so happy about if it was new, but now cuz it's old i hate it. Maybe that's it. Aquaintance breeds contempt or something? Who knows.. I'm out!

Ok! So Christmas is over and i haven't written in this for a while because i was sick from work.

*Cough Cough*.

Umm.. Brief update of life.. I believe, we finished recording, on the last day the chicks that sticks got with did some moaning for us at the beginning of sheep, and it's really good, almost disturbing even, we also hung a mike out the window and smashed some bottles to get some sound effects and stuff. Went to the beach afterwards and we all got drunk on Coopers (beer of gods) and it was all sweet.

Frankly the last week is a bit of a blur, i think we went to the beach again, umm, i'm pretty sure we did but i don't know where or when.

Chrsitmas was allright, went to my mum's friends Lily's place and sat there and got pissed, went home, slept, christmas morning, got prezzies, went to grandparents, hung out, saw mel, my auntie who i hadn't seen in ten years, and yeah it was cool, there was no family fight for a change.

Al unfortunately didn't get an x-box but he did get a christmas hamper, i don't think he was too happy with it.

What else? we got a big bin, which is ace, because a big bin can hold a lot of rubbish. It's great.

Went to Jeff's place a few times, I have to behave now while im there, but it's weird, everytime i hang out with Jeff. or something that is his, i just want to smash it, or mess it up, or just be really annoying? I don't know what it is. Maybe Jeff has some special hormones that influence me to become annoying?

Stixx is ok, he went to So-Hi's and had her over for christmas, the goss is that he loves her, he's also shitty about me bitching about him on this site, so im not gonna talk about him anymore and its probably better that way.
So, no more Stixx on this blog.

Money sucks, im running out, people owe me money, i wish they'd pay me back.

Owing money to people sucks, but having people owe money to you, tho it also sucks, is a bit better.

Oh, i got a "game boy advance sp", wow, what an awesome gadget, it's quality, fully quality, it's the full package, everything works, i like things that are quality, and work, not many of those around.

Umm.. anything else? I dont know.. Greg got a house now, which has a pool, so we'll be using that.

My house has mice the size of rats in it.

Yes, that's it, oh one weird thing i've been noticing is that my body language has been really loud lately.. i dunno how to explain this, but i feel like thoughts are just waaay loud these days, and i cant fake anything because my body gives me away.. but maybe im paranoid.

Anything else? I don't think so. I have some Sushi and a Nudie drink, i bought it from the healthfood shop downstairs, the chick there is really nice, and she always gives me a discount, today i got a free nudie drink, good stuff!

If anyone else can remember what exciting things ive done in the last 11 days then please let me know! Bye!

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Conspiracy Corner : Recent earthquakes in Iran that killed over 10,000 people. This is part of the "war" that will eliminate Iran politically. The San Simeon Californian quake was a test of the equipment before the actual strike. The latitude of the Iranian Quake and the California quake were very close. Funny, since Ah-nold has been governor, there have been fires, quakes, landslides and hailstorms. What's next??

Saw "V" the series/movie. Wow, spot on, it's so accurate it's scary, it's sci-fi, but fuck it's deep, especially episodes 1 & 2, when the the bad guys take over pretending to be our friends. This shit is happenning now.

Sometimes, i feel like giving up, and quitting, and giving up.

We had pizza last night, it was nice, umm, yeah..

Kansas is living with us now, which is cool, cuz he actually cleans and stuff.

I'm thinking about starting a blog purely for bitching about Stixx considering that's what half this bloody blog is about!

What else? Umm.. not much, today i woke up to the sun coming through my window, it was nice, i lay in it for a while, a good start to the morning. I've just paid the rent. Austin's put through the money that he owes me, and i'm doing fine. Unfortunately i'm stuck in this corporate hell until 7:00. Sux.

Going to see Nancy Vandal reunion this saturday but! Which should be great, and i don't have work tomorrow! Yes!!

Threesomes.



Damn! So Stixx, right, got these 2 sixteen-year-old chicks into a bathroom yesterday and "had some fun".
It would be cool if they were two chicks he had met, but it wasn't, it was 2 chicks Austin met.

Austin picked them up, Austin took them out, Austin got them drunk, and Austin gave them massages.

Yet Stixx got the goodies.

I feel for Austin I really do, I'm pissed off at Stixx, and I wasn't even there, tho from what I hear I should've been!
..2 chicks swimming around in g-strings in a pool and sauna, whilst I sat on my couch and watched Red-Dwarf.. (Lister & Rimmer were my partners for the night.. yeah, who's the loser here?).

Stixx had a great night, and Austin had a shit night.

I'm jealous of both of them, cuz one of the chicks was hot and they both got to see her in a pink g-string, her name is Nikki and she was definitely poke worthy. Austin was after the other one, whose name was Alex. Who was allright. But it doesn't matter now because we now know they're both sluts. Which could have been a good thing, except now they're not just sluts, they are sluts stained by Stixx, and that's not good. It's bad.

Sluts Stained By Stixx..

The worst bit of the story is when Austin tells me that Stixx didn't do shit and then jumped in right at the end and took Austins fruits from his labor. See, the girls kept on disappearing while they were at the sauna/pool, and they'd just go into the bathroom together for 15 mins and come back out, I reckon they were getting it on, cuz drunk chicks are like that (I have just confirmed that this is indeed correct), and yeah they did it one last time but Stixx jumped into the bathroom with them (which I have to admit, was a smart move), and he then locked Austin and Dennis out and didn't come out for 1.5 hours (which I have to admit, is also a smart move, but that's not the point).
According to Austin, Stixx was naked and shut the door on his face.
Austin would've been so upset. Well not "would've" he "was".
He called me this morning and he didn't sound good.

Fucking Stixx, cuz Stixx did that he's now a cunt, if Austin had done it he'd be a champ, but Stixx is a cunt. We all know Austin needs it badly.

Poor guy... Girls are evil. But fun to fuck.

I'm upset too! How come I haven't been at that pool with naked chicks swimming around?! I wish I got with 2 chicks!

*Siighhh*

Gotta get out, Gotta get out, Get some!

Allan and I have decided that we're going to become players, we're gonna go out and pick up lots of hoes, lie to them about how cool we are, then bring them back to our house, get them drunk, and then take advantage of them. I think it's the way to go.

Snot are a great band with some great lyrics..

"I jus' lie, I jus' lie just to fuck you, but this choice is not just mine."

And that's just it.

Austin has gotten into my blog, i guess i shouldn't use the same password for everything!

Umm.. so what's going on, ok quick update.. Stixx fucked us around we wanted to sort him out and he went crazy and it was shit cuz we had all this shit put on us, and we sorted it out now so it's all allright. It's funny, how this band works, we're like the biggest bunch of bitches, we're not at all professional, we just bitch and argue yet we're always friends. I guess it's cuz we're brothers, and brothers fight and make up and that's just the way shit is, and if anyone on the outside doesn't like it, or doesn't understand, well that's just fine. We will continue in our silly ways regardless.

So yeah. Stixx is back in, the recording is sounding great, Stixx is still a bit of a dweeb but, today he got the shits cuz i didnt give him money to get to the studio, but i didnt have any money, so he chucked a sook and got upset and slammed the door and then Allan had to give him the money so he'd go, the thing is, he probably wouldn't have gone without getting that money, and that ain't cool, so again we're gonna have to kick his ass so he knows that we're not gonna pay his way.

Yep.. what else? Umm, the solos on the cd are read, the vocals are sounding rad, it should be good, i wonder how it's gonna all work out after the cd gets done? I hope someone rich and famous likes it and sends us lots of money.

That picture up the top, that's for austin, i'm sure he'll appreciate. I'm starting to get worried that all my friends are gay. I mean, i know, they're all gay, but gay gay. Like GAY. I hope they're not. What i want, is for all of us to meet a new set of mad chicks who hang out with us and like sega and beer, hopefully the chicks will have cars too, and do our bidding. That would be ace.

Ah shit! I've spent half my lunch on the net and i've gotta go out and get Allan a toothbrush!!

PABLO IS A FAGGOT!

Ha hahahaah!!!!

i got into pablo's blog.
Pablo is gay.
He's not sick. he's just taking time off.
I hope his boss reads this..

awesome..

awesome..

did i mention pablo is a fag??
you know.. takes it in the ass..


Austin.

I'll say this :

People need to take responsibilty for their own situation in life, and people need to stop playing the victim and blaming other people for their problems.

Dickheadedness is hereditary.

There is no such thing as a free ride.

People who don't pay now, will never pay.

Drugs are not an escape.

You can't lie to everyone because eventually it will all come crashing down.


That's all.

TIRED

Agh, im gonna die, im falling asleep while talking to customers, here's a quick update.

Yesterday we laid down the vocals for No Holds Barred, and the second guitar to 80's lovin', N.H.B sounds sick, thay all do, so yeah, good stuff. We had a discussion about money and now we're in trouble cuz i don't think we have enough to pay for the mixing (or the mastering, production or pressing) so yeah, that sucks, money sucks, sometimes i just think fuckit, but that's just me being stupid. If only Stixx had gotten the money together.. stupid cunt. Yeah and now he's meant to be at the studio and he's not there yet, man, sometimes, grr, he's fucked sometimes, maybe we should hold off the mix till he gets shis together..

Yeah, so er.. afterwards we went to RAWS house and she got pissed (like drunk) and then i went to sleep and she woke me up in the morning telling me Stixx hated her cuz she rooted another guy, like i give a shit anyway, and like, fuck, i thought that she was just a root to Stixx, he reckons she is, but he's such a sucker.. bah, it's not my life i don't care. I'm just pissed she woke me up.


I had 2 weird dreams yesterday.

In the first one, i was like in a classroom or something and we were all told to get under the desk cuz there was gonna be an explosion, but i thought it was just a drill and i was all cynical and they were like, no this is real, so i got under the desk and there was this huge explosion (we were in penrith or parra and the explosion came from Sydney), and then i was like, yeah, that's ok, it's just one, but then there was heaps more, and there was like 10 huge explosions in Sydney and i was like "why would they attack us?!" like, i couldn't really comprehend it, becaus it was real, then i looked out the window and saw the huge dustcloud that comes after nuclear bombs coming towards the building and it spun me out..

The other one, Shariff and I were hanging out, and we went to Zoe (my ex) and Cases place, and it was a mess, and there was heaps of condom packets and shit everywhere, and they'd had a baby, but they weren't there, and i was telling Shariff that the place wasn't fit for a baby and i got really upset and then i saw the baby's room and it was even worse and so i was gonna write them a letter telling them to get their shit together and stuff, i was pretty upset for the baby, even tho i'd never seen it, but i didn't, and then raw woke me up.

That's about it. Creditline sucks. I had a guy go off at me, asking me how i could morally work here, well, i reckon, better me than someone else, at least im nice about being an asshole. I had this lady who didnt read her contract, she took out $4000 at 27.5% interest per annum, in 3 years payments she'd only gotten $500 off the principle, at first i felt for her, but when i tried to help her she wouldn't even listen, or accept that she's fucked up. Well fuck her, she deserved it then. People need to stop being so fucking stupid and giving away their power and shit, blindly taking loans, fuck. People are DUMB.

I think im in a bad mood, probly cuz im tired, i get to go home today! Yes!!

Not much to report today..

...or is there? and who cares anyway?..

Ok so.. umm.. i'm tired. I need sleep, i think i'm going to pass out tonight, and i have to play guitar. Arggh. Recording sucks. Nah, it rocks, but it sucks, but i bet when i'm not recording i'll be wanting to be recording.. actually, no working sucks, hardcore, recording is good. My job sucks now, i can't use the net anymore, except for at lunch, and i'm always being watched, or so it feels like anyway, so i'm always like.. scared. That sucks. They also intercept my e-mail when i mail out now. And they've banned my chat thingie on this site, like it still works kinda but i can't see the smilies or the background because supposedly they have a reference to "sex". Pfft. Soon I won't be able to read my own site! That would suck. I need to cheer up!

Recording

Going strong, things that are cool :

*Clay is funny

*Stixx's new vocals on "Sheep", a bit of getting used to, but they're sick.

*Finished guitars for "Gone", "Get Up Stand Up" & "Sheep"

*All the chicks around the studio

Things that aren't cool :

*I'm tired

*I suck at guitar

*Solos

*The Raw is calling Stixx. Damn bitch. I think i'm possessive or jealous of Stixx or something.. nah, i just know that bitches are bitches and they fuck him up, i shouldn't get involved, well i haven't, it's got nothing to do with me, but it does, anyway, yeah i've decided i hate her. I said that to Stixx this morning (she called him like 30 times this morning), and he said "Shut up Pablo" and then she said i was cool. So i felt bad for a second, but now i don't, cuz she's RAW, and cuz she's calling Stixx. . . "He's ours bitch!".

I'm a rude cunt. Pfft. Blah. Meh..

I wonder if i can get in trouble for writing shit in my blog at work, and for using words like cunt.

What about "Sluzza"?

Ah, what a quality word.

"Hey Sluzza, show us where your daddy puts it!" - Chicks dig it when you talk to them like that.

Bye!

P.s - Austin sent me this link, i can't look at it, but you might be able to. It's probably got naked chicks in it.

http://partybabes.doingitwith.us/scene15/page_01.htm

http://www.glennbeck.com/news/05172002.shtml

"This is serious mum."

So.. a fair bit has happenned since the last post, i'm just not in the mood to write about it, but i guess i better otherwise i'll never get around to it.

Ok, this weekend what we did was.. go to the studio and record, well, that's what I did anyway, and it was good, we've finished all the base tracks and now i just need to add the second guitar and the solo's and then vocals and then we're done.

We had a big talk with Stixx yesterday about his position in the band, unfortunately there's some things i can't talk about in this blog, but the stat is, that issues had to be brought up in order for them to be resolved and hopefully they will be.

The record is sounding really good, so good that it's crazy, i can't wait till it's done! I think it's going to be called "No Holds Barred" after the song, but i reckon "Where's all the screaming chicks?!" is also a good name for the e.p, if you have any suggestions then lemme know!

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Working Sux..

I'm starting my new job today, well it's actually my old job, what i was doing before auto, and now i'm back, on creditline, which kinda sucks, because all our customers are the people so desperate for money that they had to get finance, and hence most of them are westies who complain about anything they can think of. So it kinda sucks.
At the same time, i guess it's a good thing because it's a change, like i said before, change is the desired state, so i'm gonna go with it.

I read somewhere that the best way to live is to have no expectations but to make the right choices, i'm hoping i'm making the right choices, i'm going blind into the future, sometimes i think i should plan more, but then i figure, well, so far my strategy has worked out ok, so it should continue to do so, and i hope it does.

Umm... what else?... Kansas washed our dishes! And Al's parents mowed our lawn! I love that, if you leave something long enough, eventually someone will do it for you! ... A dangerous strategy, but one worth applying if you have a fear of dirty dishes like me! I'm really tired at the moment, i've had an energy drink and a coffee and i'm still falling asleep, i don't think i've slept properly in over 2 weeks. It's kinda crap.

It's Real.

We've been trained to dismiss anything about a New World Order as a crazy conspiracy theory but it's happenning right now and it's not crazy, just watch the news with a bit of skepticism and do a bit of research and it's pretty easy to see..

I think the next 15 years are going to be very interesting.. I really hope i'm wrong about all this shit however.

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Recording..

Is going great! Stayed at the studio till 11:30 yesterday, we got "Get Up Stand Up" and "No Holds Barred" and they sounds monstrous! This CD, the more i think about it, the more i'm sure it's going to blow everyone away.

We've been discussing how to sell the music, and one of the ideas is to not press cd's at all but to charge people $5 to $10 to download the album and then charge them an extra $2 for the artwork, it would save us a lot of production costs and it makes life easier for us, but then again I like the idea of our cd at the shops. Clay said this was the same problem that happenned when vinyl went to tape and then tape to cd and that we have to be a step ahead and play it smart and I agree, so yeah, if you know how we can sell music online let me know!

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Love backwards is Evol.

Stixx went to So Hi's (his ex) yesterday, the fool!
I swear he makes some dumb moves, and he told her that he'd slept with Kristy (Dennis's housemate) which didn't go down too well. He took off with Clay's key to get into the studio too and we had to wait for him for ages. I wanted to have a go at him but i didn't, tho i did ask him why he was such a sucker for punishment, because like, he always goes back for more, to get fucked around by people that are SO small in the cosmic scale of things, i don't like it when he fucks over the people that actually matter in favour of petty people that just want to hold him back. I think this happens with a lot of people, and it sucks, Stixx is cool, but there's so many cool people out there that get fucked over and become cynical and sour because of petty people that have used and abused them. It sucks.

Pablo sez : Stay true to yourself, don't burn your bridges (unless you want to, if that's the case i suggest you burn them so badly that they can never be rebuilt, otherwise it's not worth it), remember your roots, and never go backwards!

NEVER!

If a situation is over, it's over, no point in going back to waste energy on a course in hopelessness.

I'm just as bad with many things I know, but i won't ever let a girl play energy games with me, not unless i wanna play too, because it's just a waste of time and energy. Going out with a girl to me, is like an investment, and it's gotta pay off, i mean that in a good way, it's gotta be a co-creative relationship, not a co-dependent one.

Co-dependent relationships are soul destroying, and extremely dangerous because they hide in a love facade, and before you know it, you have no friends and no life because you fucked them all off for your partner who's probably just gonna fuck you in the end anyway. (They've already fucked you out of your friends and freedom, why wouldn't they fuck you again?). If a person you're with takes away your power/energy, or they drain you, then they're nothing but evil parasitic vampires that must be disposed of. Harsh but true, people that are true will empower you and support your independance and freedom. That's what i think anyway.

I've lost some good friends cuz of bad boyfriends/girlfriends. It sucks.

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Work

Today is my last day at the Auto department, i'm leaving the Formula 1 team, it sucks cuz i won't have Kylie around to ask the same questions over and over to, and i won't be able to be as sloppy with my adherance to schedule. Which is crap, cuz i'm all over the shop all the time, and often late.

But, the way i see it, is that it's a change, and any change is good, regardless of how bleak it might look or how scary it might feel, change is the desired state, there are often things in the horizon we can't see, so we have to walk forward into the change, blind but with faith..

I only hope i'm wise enough to follow my own advice!

Yesterday on my way to the studio while listening to Ozomatli with J5 this girl jumped up and down in front of me to make me stop because she wanted me to sponsor a child for the Spastic centre, and it was funny because she was like, exactly the music i was listening to, anyways she was pretty cool and into J5 (she got hang out with tuna!) and stuff and we had a discussion about how i don't support charities because most of them are hell corrupt and they are just a front for a lot of really shady dealings, well i felt a bit guilty after because i reckon she represented a good charity and i didn't sponsor a child, but guess what, Allan (my drummer) sponsored one for $40 a month, so if we go halves it's sweet!

So that's what we're going to do!

Charity Girl (sorry, i forgot your name but it started with an "M") : If you've come to this site, you are cool, me and allan are going halves on a kid, how good is that? To find out about how the whole medical/charity system is bullshit you should go to nomorefakenews.com (it's a link on the right) and read the archives, it explains it quite well, there's a lot of links here on the right that if you do some research will prove how the major charities are fronts for many other things, how cancer and aids are a sham and only used to control the population and make money. It's really depressing, but it's true.

Follow this link for the stats.

Thankfully there are people like you around with life, passion and that spark that makes things real! Keep up the good work and may you get many kids sponsored!

-Pablo

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On the news today :

"The Bush Administration has signalled the most sweeping shift in the US military presence abroad since World War II, telling allies around the globe that it will immediately seek to redeploy troops, ships and aircraft."

This is heavy shit. We're at war. They want it to be bigger than WW2...

My stupid blog fucked up today and i lost my template and all my links and i had to fix it all back up, stupid internet! Computers are so dumb.

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Recording Update: Yesterday i went to the studio with Stixx and we recorded Pretty Punk Ditty, the guitar is.. MASSIVE.
It is sounding really good and i reckon I played it good and proper. It has this Guns and Roses / Apetite for Destruction edge to it..

We are the plagiarism kings I reckon, but unwittingly, i guess all our influences come through subconsciously. (Like the rhytm for the PPD solo can be replaced by the bass solo in "Sweet Child Of Mine"! Thank Clay for pointing that out!)

SSFD : the best of all the 80's and 90's rock riffs.. but punk

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Stixx had ecstasy! Oh noooo! He's mega-positive now! The funniest thing was when his dad came into the studio and Stixx sat him down to tell him how "it all makes sense now, you just have to follow your heart" Crap.. hahahah, it was weird.

Now he's hooking up with this pill popping asian chick called Jess maybe, she has a boyfriend and she's very loud, i hope he just like uses her for roots and pills, because if he falls in "love" again (Stixx's definition of love is very open to interpretation) then we're in trouble. Hahah and he played the other one as well but i'm not allowed to talk about that! RAW

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We've been videotaping heaps of crap from the recording, what else..? In the last few days this stuff has happenned..

* Sam (I Am) came over and played us his rap tunes which were sick and he fully rapped them all to us in the living room and it was very cool.

* We Sauna'd and Spa'd a lot.

* The Swinging Gate.

* Jeff got *very* naked.

* Kansas has been very cool lately, he had some shit with some dudes who wanted to kill him cuz they reckon he ripped them off, but he's handled it all very well and he's surprised me with his insights into the current world situation.

* I got a full time job here, which means i go back to crappy creditline, which is a crap product with crap customers and a crap system, bot just that i get paid less, and my new team leader will be a lady called Jan who from all accounts seems to be very strict... im scared.

And that's it for today's update. Yay!..

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WHOA!

I just HAD to stop everything and put up this post!

WARREN HAS HIS OWN WEBSITE!



With dating tips and all!!! ... WARREN IS THE MAN!!!!!

I suggest you all go to his site and learn some tips from this god amongst men! With such great lines as .."Hot" "Slap" "Who's Your Daddy" and "Prrr" who could ever deny him?!!?!?!!?!



Damn I love Virgin.

AGH! I'm back at work!

It sucks. Hard.

So much so, that i might just quit.

Hmm.. probably not, stupid money... but sometimes i think, who cares? having no money has got to be better than being here.. and this is a good job!

I HATE WORK. I hate it because i dont feel productive, im just going through the motions to keep my evil, evil, evil company happy. (G.E are a great company, to people like me, and good to work for, but they have many subdivisions that are involved in many evil things, i.e building tanks and missiles that kill innocents) But then, they are one of the biggest companies in the world, so what do you expect?

I hate having to start on a negative note but i just feel like crap in this building, i feel like crap as soon as i see the line to the elevators (god i HATE elevators!) to when my computer takes 10 minutes to boot properly to deleting the STUPID ammount of e-mails that show up after being away for a week. So again, i apologize.

The previous week was great, no work, working on our e.p, wow, i felt freedom, something i haven't had for a while, and now i've got a taste for it..

All week we've been having fun, hanging out at Dennises with his mad views and sauna/pool, recording at the studio (Clay is very funny), drinking longnecks at 11:00 a.m, hanging out in the city at night, going to strwberry hills hotel, going on treks.. its ace, and we've got it all on video too!

I'm thinking, if it's this good being 40 km's away from home for one week, what would it be like being 4000kms away from home for a month?!

We're going on tour, no ifs buts or maybes.

You hear that Austin?

We're gonna quit our job, in the most memorable fashion, and go on to become rich, obnoxious, drugged up rock stars. Sound good to you?

Sounds good to me!

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Dig, here's some crazy shit, first of all, George W Bush is the most protested against man in the history of humanity, but he's chilling out at at the castle, as if nothing has happenned..

I'll tell you why.. he's been brainwashed and programmed, this is not crazy, it's common sense. We all know now that he does NOT pull the strings, G.W does NOT make the decisions, he is just a face, a poster boy, the people in power who are actually pulling the strings are laughing.

Those pulling the strings, they don't care about specific countries, or doctrines, or ways.. they care for themselves and their power..

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Here are some Pablo predictions for 2004 :

G.W is assassinated in office.

Martial Law is introcduced to the U.S.

High Profile Celebrities with a conscience will be subject to much defamation.

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P.S Richards, couldn't find the links to those songs, but search for STS 9.

Recording Begins!..

Yay! Yaaaay! YaaaaaaaYYY! Today is the day where it all begins! Whooo! But not for me as such because i'm in this evil 12 story edifice, working.

But afterwards, it begins for me too! (The rest of the band is already at it, driving to the studio right now, listening to Ugly Kid Joe, having a good time.. bastards).

It should be good, we've been looking forward to this for such a long time! The only reason i've got a job is to save money to pay for this, and now we're there! Wow! I wonder how long it's going to take before it comes out? Hmm.. we still have to design a cover and find out about pressing and printing and all that jazz..

The idea is, that the C.D is going to be so good, that someone with lots of money is going to listen to it and decide to give us lots of their money (which they have lots of) and pay for everything.

We're recording these tracks.

1. SSFD (The enemy unseen)
2. Sheep
3. 80's Lovin
4. No Holds Barred
5. It's Irrelevant
6. Pretty Punk Ditty
7. Gone
8. Get Up Stand Up


Sex Appeal..

Ah, yes, so we're gonna hang out at the city and pretend to be big rockstars, i just looked at the clock, it's on 11:11, and yeah we're gonna pick up lots of hoes cuz they'll be like, all over us, cuz we're rock royalty and stuff. We're recording at a studio near china town, so maybe we can go to that restaurant where you can eat food off a naked woman, and then we'll snort lines of cocaine off her back too! Wow! Rock stars are cool! I'm a rock star! I'm cool!

Look at Mr.Roth here..

Is he cool? YES!

Does he get lots of chicks? YES! Is he rich? YES!

Was he just having fun? YES!

Did he start off by recording an e.p or cd or something when he was young? YES!

Is he old and decrepid now? YES!

Does that matter? NO!

Why?

Because it's ROCK AND ROLL!!!!

Hahah, i remember how they laughed, they all laughed, when we said we were going to start a band even though we didn't know how to play instruments.. Now who's laughing?! HUH?! ARE YOU MOTHERFUCKER?!

NO, YOU'RE FUCKING NOT!

YOU WANNA KNOW WHY?! CUZ WE'RE THE SHIT!

FUCK! WE'RE THE SHIT!!

Watch out, cuz SSFD is after your ass y'all...

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Here's some funny links for my friends to go to :

http://www.designboom.com/trash/bse.html
http://www.worldbeardchampionships.com/
http://www.danyboy.com/
http://www.bastardnetwork.com/ <- For Jeff & Austin, Made by Adam ex Hassle Brigade
http://members.optusnet.com.au/sammo/vids/ <-- Paris Hilton Sex Vid 4 Austin

Enjoy!

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Haha, I like this picture, it's so aussie.

Ok, so, yesterday we had a domestic.

Stixx fucked up.

Badly.

He smoked Al's pot when Allan specifically asked him not to, not only did he ask him not to (that morning) but he also put the pot away in his room so Stixx wouldn't smoke it.

So what does Stixx do?

He goes through Allans room and smokes it.

And then, as if that's not rude enough, after we get over that dispute, i find that 3 strings on my guitar are broken and so is the input jack, which i had fixed and someone has now put together with sticky tape, i went feral, i was soo pissed off, i mean, i've been in a bad mood all week, but that just cut it, it makes me angry just to type about it!
So i went out the back and smashed up a chair and some bottles (i had to smash something) which is better than punching a hole in the wall I think.. yeah and also, Stixx used Al's drums, which Allan also made a point of letting Stixx know not to do...

Stixx said sorry and then told us he doesnt know why he does these things and he knows they're wrong and that he's just fucked in the head etc..

Fine, i'll accept that.

Once.

If anything like the above ever happens, again, he is out of my house, because he breached our trust and that shit is wrong. I've learnt my lesson, I give people one chance, Stixx is lucky cuz he got 3 in one day, but i'm not gonna let somone screw me over while they play the victim game.

Everytime i think of the recording, i get depressed because I know that it is up to Stixx to pay his share so we can release it, and i just don't see him getting that money.. he reckons he has no reason not to get a job now (cuz his surgery got delayed), well, he better put his money where his mouth is, because i don't think i can handle someone at my house unemployed for any more than a month, i don't want to go crazy, and shit like that drives me crazy, but as i said, and as Homer once said "I'm never gonna let that happen again!".

Now i'm upset.. i've gotta get over it.. oh i pray Stixx gets a job.. my future depends on it.. i tell him all the bloody time and it goes like this :

Pablo : Get a job, blah blah blah!

Stixx : I know

Pablo : So?

Stixx : So you keep on repeating yourself, i already know ok?

Pablo : But you've known for 6 months.

Stixx : Well i've been having a tough time.

Pablo : You're not having a tough time now.

Stixx : You don't understand...

Pablo : I understand that you don't do shit.

Stixx: Back off.

Pablo: You fucking back off, do something cunt.

Stixx : JUST FUCK OFF YOU KEEP ON REPEATING YOURSELF!!!


Pablo : I KNOW! CUZ YOU DON'T FUCKING LISTEN!!

Stixx : SO FUCK OFF!! *Deep breath* Look, i know i need to get a
job, you don't need to keep on telling me, i'll get one o.k?

Pablo : When?

Stixx : Sometime.

Pablo : Sometime when?

Stixx : Fuck off Pablo..

Pablo : I'm not going to stop till you get a job.

Stixx : Well i better get a job then.

Pablo : So are you gonna get one?

Stixx : We'll see..

Pablo : *Anger*

Stixx : Look, just back off ok, there's shit you don't understand, i'm depressed, my life is so hard, you don't have it tough like me. (Sitting around doing nothing smoking bongs having parents pay the rent)

Pablo : Fuck off with your bullshit victim excuses.

Stixx : FUCK OFF! RAAAAH! MOTHERFUCKER!! DIEEEE!!!

Pablo : GET A JOB AND I WILL!!

Stixx : I'll get a job when i can!!!

Pablo : And when is that?!

Stixx : I don't know!

Pablo : But you can get a job now!

Stixx : FUCK OFF!!!


So on and so on and so on and so on... this continues on and on..
does he not understand how important this band is? or the fact that the very reason he's depressed is that he doesn't have a job? He's had it just as tough as anyone else. Why is he special? He better get a job, i swear, or i'll go nuts. *Sigh*!

Ok i'm going now. .. i think i'm going to print this and give it to Stixx, he'll probably get upset. haha.

"That's just not Hip-Hop"



Wha....

I'm so out of it right now.. i'm hungry and tired, big weekend, here's the breakdown..

Friday : After work, met up with Allan, went to Sydney where we caught up with Clay, Dennis, Austin, Richard & Richards at the Strawberry Hills hotel in the city.

Had a few drink and a big juicy steak and got a massage off a random girl. 3 minute angels.

Went to the Gaelic, and eagerly awaited the mighty Hilltop Hoods, sik, the first few bands were a bit dodgy but by the time hilltop got on, i was up the front dancing my ass off and so was the whole of upstairs and downstairs, it went off bra!

"Some serious underground aussie hip hop shit y'all! Y'know wat im sayin'?"

.. There was these dudes "battling" it out at the front (rapping back and forth a la eminem), one of the rappers got too excited and started dissing this guy who just went up and punched him in the face and it was great, "It's just freestyle.." he was saying.

It was funny. Then the cops showed, there was at least 40 of them, including the tactical squad, i know cuz i counted them. They were after some other dudes fighting, there was a bit of a scuffle, some cops got sprayed with mace, and i heard that one got stabbed and someone got thrown down the stairs of central, we just watched it all happen and laughed, especially at the cops that got mace in their eyes (how do they like it?!).

"That's just not hip hop"..

Saturday - I woke up wasted.. umm, lay about for a long time, then er.. oh, i was trying to figure out something to do all day, it was hard cuz we don't have a car, and we're lazy. We decided that staying at home would be cool if we made some music & took some speed, so we did that.

We recorded "Take It Easy" a rap song. That entertained us for a while.. Shazza showed up with Meredith & Jess & Chris & Chrissie, i think i just stayed up talking crap to them all night.

Personally, I hate speed, i think it's the shittest drug, it's usually a rip off, makes you talk crap, you grind your teeth, and coming down sux, and then when you have a bong to even it out, you end up in a weird headspace that takes like 2 days to get over...

So i didn get any sleep on Saturday.
On Sunday we went shopping at Aldi, and we got shitloads of food, now our fridge has food! It's incredible.

Clay came over as well, to check out our new song, which doesn't even have a name yet, maybe we should come up with a name...

It's too much..

It's just too much, i can't do it, i'm not a journalist, i'm not a detective, i'm not a psychic, there's just way too much stuff out there, and everything has another side.. i think i'm going horizontally, waste of time, out instead of in, but i'm curious, but there's no point, self discovery.. umm.. there's the harmonic concordance / convergence this saturday & a worldwide lunar eclipse, is that dissinformation? False hopes shattered, or true hopes fulfilled? Is anything even real?

Stewart Swerdslow is a con artist? Or is that dissinformation? Montauk isn't real.. or too real? if i knew, would it matter? i can't change it, or am i playing right into the game.. oh man... i need to take some time off...
Is ignorance bliss? what difference does it make to know or to not know? protection? can something you're not aware of harm you? i think so, but what if i can't affect it, whatever doesn't kill us can only make us stronger? Are we an ostrich with it's head in the sand? or an ostrich too smart to add energy to their games.. if thought creates what we focus on, then can it create alternate realities/dimensions if we focus on them? do they exist now? does it matter? Probably not.. but maybe, but maybe not....

Is complacency bad? or good? peace, love and light is unbalanced. Too boring. So we want balance yeah? We? Is there a We? Is it all dependant on me or on the mass, it's both right? I affect the mass.. is there a critical mass? Have we reached it? or are we being told that we have so that we don't? What if the monarchy really are a bunch of evil reptiles? That run the planet? Are movies hints? is "V" real? Why am i even thinking about these things? Why can't i stop? What is the significance of things? Is a little thing such as a ladybug or a rainbow significant? or does it only carry the significance we attach to it? or is it the significane that we can perceive or be aware of at the time that is real? is there a cosmic significance or purpose? why is it that when i get close to something i think is right or comfortable with what i know, something else comes and completely stuffs me up? ...

Maybe my brain is broken... it probably is.. because i always forget everything.

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Largest Solar Flare Ever Recorded

04-Nov-2003

A massive solar flare saturated X-ray detectors onboard GOES satellites for 11 minutes. The last time such a thing happened was in 2001. That flare was classified as an X22--the biggest ever. This one was even bigger. It was almost certainly the biggest flare ever recorded. "This solar flare was the largest I have ever seen" said Dr. Ernest Hildner, director of the NOAA/NASA Space Weather Center.

Does that have any significance? That the flare was aimed squarely at earth? (It was)..

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"When people choose to experience mental uncertainty, it is a choice they make to allow for their search into other realities. It is not wrong, it is just another possibility. " - Kirael

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We had a big rainbow at the front of our house yesterday, it was a complete arc and it was really pretty, my dad came over for a bit, he's going to Cambodia (what's with him and war countries?).

Maybe he'll go to Afghanistan next.

So, we had band prac and we sucked because Stixx doesn't know how sound works or how to use amps and he kept on feedbacking and sounding crap and yelling at me when i tried to fix it, he always wants it so loud, dick, now he can't smoke for 2 months cuz he's getting surgery on his nose because it's crap but i don't reckon he can keep it up, but he'll have to cuz otherwise his face will be stuffed.

I feel really hopeless right now, probably cuz i can't get any answers and i know that even if i did they wouldn't matter, so i'm quitting my job as a truth junkie/addict because i don't think i care at the moment, it's just way too much, way too deep, way too crazy and people are going to start thinking i'm insane if i keep it up. In something completely unrelated : I'm going to go see Hilltop Hoods at the Metro tonite! Sik, Aussie, Rap.

Kylie just sent me a message, it sez :

"STOP READING THE INTERNET PABLO ITS NOT HEALTHY DUDE"

I think i agree..

Ok, so i quit, if i can, i choose to quit, i'm going to start looking up websites about funny chinese signs that don't make sense and nice pictures of cats and stuff. Instead of sites like these..

QUANTUM FORCE HEADQUARTERS
INTELLIGENCE LINKS
{...Founding organizational member of the "METAVERSAL ALLIANCE of SOVEREIGN TIMEWAVES" -- M.A.S.T. ... }

I'm not crazy (that's what crazy people say) i'm just open minded and curious, but what's the point of finding out that there could be divergent timelines in space? What good, does that knowledge serve me? I might as well learn the name of all the X-Men backwards, that would probably have more value anyway!

The truth will set you free, but the search for the truth will completely fuck your brain up.

If i'm already free, do i need truth? how do i know if i'm free? How real is the Matrix? Science has validated and proven that it's real, so what do we do with that knowledge?

I should probably not put this shit up on my blog but i don't care, strength comes with being vulnerable, so here's my prayer..

"God, this is an honest, and fair request : whatever you are, whoever you are, please help me find my own truth and cruise with it... frankly i just want the band to do well and to have a fun life, i'd like to know what's REALLY going on too, but just cuz i'm curious, i'm not liking all these doom and gloom scenarios that i've been reading about, but if they're real then please help me prepare for them, also, i'd like to be in my sweet spot in life, and would appreciate it if you made it blatantly obvious what it is you want me to know if you ever want me to know something.

If you're not real, then please disregard this message. Thanks!.."

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Austin & Al don't have any money to cover Stixx's recording, and i don't want to pay it cuz i don't think i'll see that money back, so we're stuffed.

"Stixx has never paid for anything.. not the first recording not the
practices we went to. not fuel to get to the gigs. i cant help at all. stixx
will be the same till the end of time. to make money you need money we have
no money therefore we cant make money." - Austin

It's true.. *Insert big "help me please" sigh in here*.

Send your donations, care of Pablo Murdoch, 16 Melita Street, Cambridge Park, NSW, Australia 2747.

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A comment



Wow! Someone left a comment on my blog!






"Lisa", seems to think that i'm "totally twisted" (that's chickspeak for hot), and she wants me to e-mail her, and her e-mail address is.. "sweet_sugar_angel@hotmail.com".

Girls with e-mail adresses like "Sweet Sugar Angel" are usually really naughty, if you know what i mean. Cuz like, they wanna seem all sweet and innocent, but when the doors close.. SLAM! You don't come out the same..

.. she probably lives in Istanbul or something stupid... but maybe she lives in Penrith, Australia and looking for a man! :) .. i'm so stupid...

It's probably Austin.

Ok, so, yesterday was very uneventful, tho I did find out that Delta Goodrem doesn't have cancer and that it's just a stunt, you can thank our producer for that one! (The bastard also got with Penne from life support!).

Yeah, so, Kansas (Texas) and Troy got into a muck around fight but it got out of hand and then they got very serious and started hitting each others bodies and stuff and it was funny, until it wasn't, at which point it wasn't funny anymore, i said ..

"Guys, can you like, leave the room, because the tension is just too much for me.."

..to which they both said..

"Grr, snarl, grrr."

.. so i don't think that helped, because they then hit each other a bit more and then they stood there, staring at each other very seriously, and like, neither of them could back down, cuz they'd be pussies then, right? Or so it goes, but the real man, he would've just laughed afterwards, shook the other dudes hand, and said "Maaate!"...

At least they didn't hit the wall.... it seems like it's an Aussie institution that if you're angry, you punch the wall, probably cuz the walls here are made out of cardboard and it's an easy way to look tough and angry... if i was gonna smash something, i'd break the t.v. or a window, anything with glass in it really.. glass is fun to smash...

Stupid customers keep on interrupting me while I try to update my blog..

That's a bit rude of me, to say they're all stupid, but a large percentage are.. but then, I guess they don't know much about car loans, so i'm imposing my expectations on them.. at the same time, they're still idiots.. especially today.


Beautiful..


Ok, so that's it! Oh, another few things happenned yesterday, first off, i found a tattoo with a lizard in my pocket, then I went home and Troy was wearing a shirt with the same lizard on it. I also found a ladybug on my bag, and it was a really pretty one, not one of those half assed ladybugs, and on my way home, there was this girl on the train singing all the way home and she was really pretty and she just sang, i don't know whether she was crazy, or really cool. There was this dickhead fully perving on her, he had a pathetic lost puppy face on him, then he blew a kiss at her when she wasn't looking, and because she didn't respond (how would she know?!!) he pulled a face and looked at her with this full hateful look, there was also the old man perving on her and i wanted to bash them both, but I couldn't and I'm probably just as bad for perving on all 3 of them, still but.. guys are crap, but so are chicks, we're both so crap, I like the ones that admit they're crap, they're the cool ones, like me, I'm crap, that's why I'm cool.

Mormon Mormon Mormon!
Elder Elder Elder!..




I've been spending all morning trying to figure out how to get people to come to this blogg, cuz i reckon it's better than many others and well, i want people to read it cuz otherwise what's the point!? So like, if you're reading this, then read more! and tell your friends!

So, what happenned yesterday?..

We had 2 mormons come over at the same time that Sam the token black dude came over.

So we had this big discussion about God and I got pretty worked up but not in a bad way, I tried to get one of them to read some of my material, he said he wouldn't, so i told him that next time, when he tries to get someone to read his material, they won't, and it's true.

I asked him :

"What's more important, finding the truth, or being a mormon?"

And he couldn't answer that, but then Tim Kovax came and saved his ass by saying ..

"He's found the truth and that's why he's a mormon".

Which was lucky for the mormon cuz otherwise, if he was a computer, he would've crashed.

My point is, how can they be so egotistical to claim that mormon is the only truth? It might be a path to a certain degree of truth, but there's no way anyone can claim to have "the truth" because truth is infinite, and it is personal, only YOUR truth is real to you, just like only MY truth is real to me.

I tried to convey that to them, that God is personal and we don't need a middleman such as the Mormon church to get to God. How can a person in a desserted island find God?

Then I asked, "What's the meaning of life?" and he couldn't answer that, and then I said "Love", and he couldn't top that.

As if you could, i challenge anyone reading this to give me a better answer, and i don't mean romantic love, i mean LOVE.

So he got kind of edgy and was like "Oh a happy life, where you do good things" and i'm like "Love covers that".. I said "As far as im concerned, saying you're mormon or this or that, is putting yourself under a label and in a box, what about saying: I am a human being, and I live in Love."

By the way, as far as i'm concerned, these are bullshit arguments that just waste time, because we all know that love is a good thing and the world is getting hardcore ass-raped at the moment and we need to discuss how to fix it instead of discussing if it even exists!

So anyways, that happenned, so the second hardcore theological discussion in my house this week, then we had a band prac and that's about it i think!

I was upset this morning because Stixx doesn't have the recording money and i don't think it's fair that i have paid for all the equipment that he uses plus i have to pay for his recording now too, it's like he gets to ride for free.. but then i thought, maybe that's good because if he doesn't put money in, he can't argue with us about it either. And we can control how the business side of things run without him fucking it up, but i'm still undecided.

P.S : I found a lizard in my room yesterday, I thought it interesting considering neither Allan nor I have seen a lizard anywhere around our house before, then I find one in my room.. after all this talk about reptiles...

*insert creepy music here*

Some Trippy Shit..

Hi! Feeling allright today, tho i had a shitty morning! Maybe because i Reikid myself last night (which i don't usually do because i usually don't believe it's going to achieve anything, tho i know it's exactly that attitude that stops it from working) see, this morning i woke up and my bag was open and there was $5 missing from my wallet, and i got real pissed cuz i reckon either Stixx took it, or it was a ghost, and i find it more believeable that Stixx did, i hope he didn't however.
Because that ain't cool.

I sez to him, I sez.. "one chance only"...

If i've learnt something this year is.. "Trust no-one" and that if something sucks, or you're getting bad vibes about something, then face up to it and get rid of it, don't let people take advantage of you repeatedly in the hope that they will stop it or learn.

See, i'm not doing anyone any favors by helping them, if anything, i'm working against them, people need to help themselves, be responsible for themselves, and cut all the fucking self defeatist excuses out! *Sighhh* anyways, moving on from that topic..

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Yesterday i met a dude called "Sam" who's this black guy from N.Y..

He travels around the world and raps and shit, he was scoring from Kansas at my house when I walked in and started tripping on everyone about the fact that NASA has recently crashed their "Galileo" space probe into the orbit of Jupiter, expecting it to just burn up.
The problem with this scenario is that the Galileo is powered by plutonium and iridium among other things.
The fear was, that crashing the Galileo into Jupiter might cause it to compress so much that it will begin a nuclear chain reaction, the odds of this were very small, however the chance was there but NASA went ahead anyway.. Now this shit is showing up..



See the big motherfucker black spot in Jupiter? That's some scary shit! Here's some more pics (all with links)..






So.. they've pretty much sent this nuclear warhead into Jupiter and and now we just have to wait and watch, it could cause a never ending chain reaction and turn Jupiter into a Sun, or it could just turn Jupiter all black. I don't know, I'm no astronomer, but I know when something scares the shit out of me.. and this does.
At the same time, i can't do anything about it and i doubt it's going to affect us for a while.. But who the fuck do these people think they are?! Fucking with something as big as Jupiter is a big deal, not something you do on a whim, it could eventually fuck up the whole solar system, tho i doubt it.. but fuck, you never know now.

Sooo.. i've come home, ranting all this shit, just walked in and got right into it, and this dude is standing there, and after i was done i looked at him and said..

"Sorry man! you're probably spinning out that i've just walked in and started ranting this shit"

and he goes..

"No man, that's full on! They planned all that, the Galileo.."

and i'm like..

"What the fuck.."

and he's like..

"Have you heard of David Icke man, that's some scary shit, think of this "Queen e-Lizard-birth.."

and i went..

"HOLY FUCK!!!! I WAS JUST THINKING ABOUT THAT!!"

.. and i was!!! I really was!! I'd been walking on my way home that afternoon thinking "Queen e-lizard-birth.." and then he says it!
How's that for coincidence? or the odds that he would mention David Icke and all this really really harcdore shit that i've been thinking and talking about.. the funny thing is, he brought up so many things that i've been telling my friends for months, that they even started believing it.. I think that coincidences have a way of pointing you to the "Current" truth (truth is constant.. yet is always subject to change, and there's many types of truth anyway, it depends on persepctive, but more importantly in the "now") .. so that you know you're on the right path, and man, i've just had so many coincidences over this whole thing lately.. too bad i can't type all about it even, it's just way too much, and it's all pretty meaningless anyway, yet at the same time sooo important.. always the paradox... Anyways, his name is "Sam", which is even cooler, because for some reason i've always wanted to meet a Sam..

And now we have a token black guy! with the accent and everything!!

Lots of partying this weekend!

Friday was Halloween, had a huge party at my place which Sophie organized and yeah, very big, around 200 people went and we all got dressed up, i had a mask that made me look like an accountant, Al & Stixx were zombies, I don't know what Austin was but it was weird, and there was heaps of chicks in really skimpy outfits!
On the left we have Fatty dressed as Silent Bob!

I was out of it most of the night! We had a smoke machine in the house and we used it a lot and yeah, Rachel didn't like the smoke, but it was probably less smoke than what she sucks down on bongs all the time! Dennis got pissed and kicked in the fence..

FUCK! I can't believe i just did that!

Kylie got me some hot chocolate and i just went to drink it but i missed my mouth and got it all over my shirt and had to go clean it but while i was drying it with the hand dryer i tried to dry the neck bit and i stuck my neck onto the metal bit of the hand dryer and burnt my neck as well.
ARGH! I hate being shit!
Anyway ive cleaned it now but i smell like chocolate.

.. Ok anyways, yeah my party was good, should do it again sometime, we played but we sucked but thats allright. Oh and i met a white husky! She followed me home on friday 31st (Halloween) on my way from work! It was like this wolf chose me, and she was soo beautiful, but a bit dirty. But she was great, hung out for a while, and then she dissappeared. Aww.



On Saturday was the famed "National Beer Day", and that was a good party too, there was this game "Bouncer" that Austin and Jeff played where they had to run at each other with big plastic balls and that was pretty funny, umm, i got drunk and was obnoxious all night, but that's what i do, im good at that, being obnoxious.
Umm.. so er.. yeah hung out with Benji and Scrotes and Simo at some points.. eww i smell like chocolate.. umm.. yeah and it was all good, there was heaps of people from Bombshell there, & there was jelly wrestling and stuff too, i got a ride home with a guy called Kurk who was friends with a chick called Stephanie who was this chick that Stixx got with.
On Sundya we just lay about all day, cleaned a bit and thats about it, and we had a band practice, that was actually really good!






For more pictures and Stories about this weekend! - Letters to God! By Steve Austin.

Hey, howzit going, i didnt do shit yesterday i went home and umm this dude Trev came over, with greenie and tom, and did their thing and left and thats about it and i went to sleep really late and then i woke up today at 7:40!!! usually i wake up at 6:20!!

So anyway right, im waking up AN HOUR and 20 MINUTES late, and i got to work only 8 minutes late! A pretty impressive effort i think!
I had to run but, and jump the fence, but it was fun.

I've been talking to this dude Stewart who says Kryon is dissinformation, we agreed to disagree.

I'll put up the correspondence maybe!

"People who eat people, are the hungriest people" - Bash.Org

Ok... it's late in the afternoon, i'm working till 6 today, yay! .. ok so what happenned yesterday? Yesterday was pretty productive actually, we cleaned, packed up the race track, talked about stuff.. and it was just good, i cleaned my room! thats it!

And i changed my bedsheets! Phwooar, theres a first time for everything!

Today, man today im freaking out, im talking to this guy, Stewart Swerdslow, he worked for the government for 25 years and was like hardcore into it, so anyway, what if everything i believe is false.. what if it is true but false also.. i dunno.. basically what if all my information is disinformation? what if the truth is, there is no truth.. no.. there has to be truth. It's so hard to find but, when we get morcels of truth along with chunks of lies, one thing i know, the truth is far far far stranger than fiction.

Most people would rather die than believe the truth.

So yeah, anyways.. what else.. well there is nothing else.

You know what i dont get, that the things that are going on are SO SO SO SO SO SOOOO fucking HUGE, yet such few care, like, i know, that, you know, people have different interests and lives, and that we cant really get bogged down on all the shit going on, but what i don't get, is the ammount of apathy towards these really interesting things that are happenning right now. I know that not everyone can be like me, and i wouldnt want them to be! But people need to become more aware about things going on that DIRECTLY affect them! Even the current free trade agreement between us and the U.S has massive implications for everyone here! Yet i reckon 90% of Australians don't even know what it is. Damn man, trade isn't about suits in offices with graphs and charts! It's about how we live, what we buy, how much it is, how we function and interact! Trade is the basis for civilization, and they're changing the rules without telling us!

You CAN be AWARE without having to get caught up in it!

WHY DON'T PEOPLE WANT TO KNOW THE TRUTH?! ABOUT ANYTHING?

are we are all so comfortably numb!

The more comfortable you are...

The less likely you are to want to rock
the boat...

Or wake up.



Maybe this is the truth?..

Ok, so im in a better mood today,
i'd be in a great mood if i didnt have customers calling me with their problems every 5 minutes,
but that's supposed to be my job,
so i just have to put up with it...


Umm.. yesterday, er, after work i went home, cleaned up made the house nice, tried to get the little X-trek car to work but it still doesn't so i'll have to take it back to K-Mart.

Toys rock, i've decided, cuz when you're young, you wish you were old so you could stay up and get the toys you want ,but then when you're old, you forget all that. Well, im not gonna let that happen, im gonna get toys! Lots of them! *Call*

ARGH i hate that damn *bEEp* ...

"G.E Pablo speaking.. ... oh *Mute* ... G.E Pablo Speaking"

Ok yeah so, anyway, turns out Stixx lost all his money and had to go back home or something, his dad called me up and reckons that Stixx has a depression and cant hold a job, which i reckon is B.S but you know, i can't say that, anyway, so we decided that the best option for Stixx's mental health is to have him move in with us (damn!) but his dad will pay board directly to my bank account (woohoo!). So we'll see how that works out..
As long as he keeps the place clean, doesn't have people over 24/7, doesn't hog the stereo and doesn't hog the loungeroom, i'll be fine. ..

Umm, what else, we practiced, that was allright, till i broke a string and we had to stop.



There's fires burning down California, i reckon it's cuz they voted for Schwarzenneger, but thats crap too cuz it was probably rigged, at the same time however, you'd have to be an idiot to let an idiot run your state.

"Idiots! Idiots rule!" - Jane's Addiction.

Ok, so i'm really fucking shitty right now and this is the only way i can get it out.

ARGGGGHHHHHHH!! why does life have to SUCK so much some days?! It's so fucked, so first of all i have to get up an hour fuckin earlier cuz some dickhead farmers thought saving daylight would be a good idea, then i have to rush like crazy to find my stupid wallet which i will admit, is my fault, however i was tired when i put it away and i was tired in the morning, i cant just get up and remember everything i did while i was tired last night, enough of that, so i run out the door, run to the stupid fucking train, get there just in time so i cant buy a ticket, i decide upon taking the risk and catching the ticket rather than being late to work, STUPID IDEA, i get to Parra..

"Ticket please?"
"Oh, i was late can i buy one here?"
"No"
"Could you make it quick at least?"
"No"

Great, so i get a $200 fine, that's 2.3 days of work, a weeks rent, a new guitar fx pedal, it would probably feed 10 families in Somalia for a month..
But instead of being used for these wonderful things, it's going to consultants who can figure out how to fuck the public out of money just that little bit more...

Anyway, so i get to work and i have to tell Danny my team leader why i'm late, to him it's just an excuse, so already i look bad, then i tell him about the ticket and he asks me to show it to him so he knows it's true, he sighs, as if i already dont feel shit, "why dont you put your alarm on?" he asks... I DO PUT MY STUPID ALARM ON, I AM READY ON TIME, SOMETIMES THINGS HAPPEN IN THE MORNING WHICH I CANT HELP.
Whatever... it just shits me so much that i feel like i have the bad reputation of getting to work late even tho im sure im not as bad as some other people, yet it's always "pablo, pablo, pablo....".

Now i look bad at work, i feel bad, i'm $200 out of pocket, im whingeing about it which is even worse and well, im just crap.

If i'm late again im going to quit, cuz i hate feeling like shit, and even tho i know that i busted my ass to get here on time, it doesnt matter, to Danny it still looks bad and i've let him down, that makes me feel like shit.

Working sucks. Transit sucks. Trains suck & today, I suck too.


My weekend

Yeah ok so on the weekend i sucked too i think, friday nite.. went home... hung out slept, saturday.. hung out at home with rachel, slept, Sunday, hung out at home with kansas and al, bought a race track, slept. Thats about it.. Eilish got with Simo which i think is great, and rachel and stixx and raj went to gosford and then nimbin or byron i think, which is cool, i wish id gone instead of coming to work. I hate making the wrong decision, god is probably up there laughing at me going "pablo, pablo, pablo..."..

Kylie wants me to update this so she has something to do because clearly, she is bored.

I have nothing to say for you Kylie, im sorry.

On the weekend i'm probably gonna get stoned & hang out.


Kylie I think YOU are the loser.