It's Real.

We've been trained to dismiss anything about a New World Order as a crazy conspiracy theory but it's happenning right now and it's not crazy, just watch the news with a bit of skepticism and do a bit of research and it's pretty easy to see..

I think the next 15 years are going to be very interesting.. I really hope i'm wrong about all this shit however.

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Recording..

Is going great! Stayed at the studio till 11:30 yesterday, we got "Get Up Stand Up" and "No Holds Barred" and they sounds monstrous! This CD, the more i think about it, the more i'm sure it's going to blow everyone away.

We've been discussing how to sell the music, and one of the ideas is to not press cd's at all but to charge people $5 to $10 to download the album and then charge them an extra $2 for the artwork, it would save us a lot of production costs and it makes life easier for us, but then again I like the idea of our cd at the shops. Clay said this was the same problem that happenned when vinyl went to tape and then tape to cd and that we have to be a step ahead and play it smart and I agree, so yeah, if you know how we can sell music online let me know!

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Love backwards is Evol.

Stixx went to So Hi's (his ex) yesterday, the fool!
I swear he makes some dumb moves, and he told her that he'd slept with Kristy (Dennis's housemate) which didn't go down too well. He took off with Clay's key to get into the studio too and we had to wait for him for ages. I wanted to have a go at him but i didn't, tho i did ask him why he was such a sucker for punishment, because like, he always goes back for more, to get fucked around by people that are SO small in the cosmic scale of things, i don't like it when he fucks over the people that actually matter in favour of petty people that just want to hold him back. I think this happens with a lot of people, and it sucks, Stixx is cool, but there's so many cool people out there that get fucked over and become cynical and sour because of petty people that have used and abused them. It sucks.

Pablo sez : Stay true to yourself, don't burn your bridges (unless you want to, if that's the case i suggest you burn them so badly that they can never be rebuilt, otherwise it's not worth it), remember your roots, and never go backwards!

NEVER!

If a situation is over, it's over, no point in going back to waste energy on a course in hopelessness.

I'm just as bad with many things I know, but i won't ever let a girl play energy games with me, not unless i wanna play too, because it's just a waste of time and energy. Going out with a girl to me, is like an investment, and it's gotta pay off, i mean that in a good way, it's gotta be a co-creative relationship, not a co-dependent one.

Co-dependent relationships are soul destroying, and extremely dangerous because they hide in a love facade, and before you know it, you have no friends and no life because you fucked them all off for your partner who's probably just gonna fuck you in the end anyway. (They've already fucked you out of your friends and freedom, why wouldn't they fuck you again?). If a person you're with takes away your power/energy, or they drain you, then they're nothing but evil parasitic vampires that must be disposed of. Harsh but true, people that are true will empower you and support your independance and freedom. That's what i think anyway.

I've lost some good friends cuz of bad boyfriends/girlfriends. It sucks.

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Work

Today is my last day at the Auto department, i'm leaving the Formula 1 team, it sucks cuz i won't have Kylie around to ask the same questions over and over to, and i won't be able to be as sloppy with my adherance to schedule. Which is crap, cuz i'm all over the shop all the time, and often late.

But, the way i see it, is that it's a change, and any change is good, regardless of how bleak it might look or how scary it might feel, change is the desired state, there are often things in the horizon we can't see, so we have to walk forward into the change, blind but with faith..

I only hope i'm wise enough to follow my own advice!

Yesterday on my way to the studio while listening to Ozomatli with J5 this girl jumped up and down in front of me to make me stop because she wanted me to sponsor a child for the Spastic centre, and it was funny because she was like, exactly the music i was listening to, anyways she was pretty cool and into J5 (she got hang out with tuna!) and stuff and we had a discussion about how i don't support charities because most of them are hell corrupt and they are just a front for a lot of really shady dealings, well i felt a bit guilty after because i reckon she represented a good charity and i didn't sponsor a child, but guess what, Allan (my drummer) sponsored one for $40 a month, so if we go halves it's sweet!

So that's what we're going to do!

Charity Girl (sorry, i forgot your name but it started with an "M") : If you've come to this site, you are cool, me and allan are going halves on a kid, how good is that? To find out about how the whole medical/charity system is bullshit you should go to nomorefakenews.com (it's a link on the right) and read the archives, it explains it quite well, there's a lot of links here on the right that if you do some research will prove how the major charities are fronts for many other things, how cancer and aids are a sham and only used to control the population and make money. It's really depressing, but it's true.

Follow this link for the stats.

Thankfully there are people like you around with life, passion and that spark that makes things real! Keep up the good work and may you get many kids sponsored!

-Pablo

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On the news today :

"The Bush Administration has signalled the most sweeping shift in the US military presence abroad since World War II, telling allies around the globe that it will immediately seek to redeploy troops, ships and aircraft."

This is heavy shit. We're at war. They want it to be bigger than WW2...

My stupid blog fucked up today and i lost my template and all my links and i had to fix it all back up, stupid internet! Computers are so dumb.

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Recording Update: Yesterday i went to the studio with Stixx and we recorded Pretty Punk Ditty, the guitar is.. MASSIVE.
It is sounding really good and i reckon I played it good and proper. It has this Guns and Roses / Apetite for Destruction edge to it..

We are the plagiarism kings I reckon, but unwittingly, i guess all our influences come through subconsciously. (Like the rhytm for the PPD solo can be replaced by the bass solo in "Sweet Child Of Mine"! Thank Clay for pointing that out!)

SSFD : the best of all the 80's and 90's rock riffs.. but punk

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Stixx had ecstasy! Oh noooo! He's mega-positive now! The funniest thing was when his dad came into the studio and Stixx sat him down to tell him how "it all makes sense now, you just have to follow your heart" Crap.. hahahah, it was weird.

Now he's hooking up with this pill popping asian chick called Jess maybe, she has a boyfriend and she's very loud, i hope he just like uses her for roots and pills, because if he falls in "love" again (Stixx's definition of love is very open to interpretation) then we're in trouble. Hahah and he played the other one as well but i'm not allowed to talk about that! RAW

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We've been videotaping heaps of crap from the recording, what else..? In the last few days this stuff has happenned..

* Sam (I Am) came over and played us his rap tunes which were sick and he fully rapped them all to us in the living room and it was very cool.

* We Sauna'd and Spa'd a lot.

* The Swinging Gate.

* Jeff got *very* naked.

* Kansas has been very cool lately, he had some shit with some dudes who wanted to kill him cuz they reckon he ripped them off, but he's handled it all very well and he's surprised me with his insights into the current world situation.

* I got a full time job here, which means i go back to crappy creditline, which is a crap product with crap customers and a crap system, bot just that i get paid less, and my new team leader will be a lady called Jan who from all accounts seems to be very strict... im scared.

And that's it for today's update. Yay!..

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WHOA!

I just HAD to stop everything and put up this post!

WARREN HAS HIS OWN WEBSITE!



With dating tips and all!!! ... WARREN IS THE MAN!!!!!

I suggest you all go to his site and learn some tips from this god amongst men! With such great lines as .."Hot" "Slap" "Who's Your Daddy" and "Prrr" who could ever deny him?!!?!?!!?!



Damn I love Virgin.

AGH! I'm back at work!

It sucks. Hard.

So much so, that i might just quit.

Hmm.. probably not, stupid money... but sometimes i think, who cares? having no money has got to be better than being here.. and this is a good job!

I HATE WORK. I hate it because i dont feel productive, im just going through the motions to keep my evil, evil, evil company happy. (G.E are a great company, to people like me, and good to work for, but they have many subdivisions that are involved in many evil things, i.e building tanks and missiles that kill innocents) But then, they are one of the biggest companies in the world, so what do you expect?

I hate having to start on a negative note but i just feel like crap in this building, i feel like crap as soon as i see the line to the elevators (god i HATE elevators!) to when my computer takes 10 minutes to boot properly to deleting the STUPID ammount of e-mails that show up after being away for a week. So again, i apologize.

The previous week was great, no work, working on our e.p, wow, i felt freedom, something i haven't had for a while, and now i've got a taste for it..

All week we've been having fun, hanging out at Dennises with his mad views and sauna/pool, recording at the studio (Clay is very funny), drinking longnecks at 11:00 a.m, hanging out in the city at night, going to strwberry hills hotel, going on treks.. its ace, and we've got it all on video too!

I'm thinking, if it's this good being 40 km's away from home for one week, what would it be like being 4000kms away from home for a month?!

We're going on tour, no ifs buts or maybes.

You hear that Austin?

We're gonna quit our job, in the most memorable fashion, and go on to become rich, obnoxious, drugged up rock stars. Sound good to you?

Sounds good to me!

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Dig, here's some crazy shit, first of all, George W Bush is the most protested against man in the history of humanity, but he's chilling out at at the castle, as if nothing has happenned..

I'll tell you why.. he's been brainwashed and programmed, this is not crazy, it's common sense. We all know now that he does NOT pull the strings, G.W does NOT make the decisions, he is just a face, a poster boy, the people in power who are actually pulling the strings are laughing.

Those pulling the strings, they don't care about specific countries, or doctrines, or ways.. they care for themselves and their power..

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Here are some Pablo predictions for 2004 :

G.W is assassinated in office.

Martial Law is introcduced to the U.S.

High Profile Celebrities with a conscience will be subject to much defamation.

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P.S Richards, couldn't find the links to those songs, but search for STS 9.

Recording Begins!..

Yay! Yaaaay! YaaaaaaaYYY! Today is the day where it all begins! Whooo! But not for me as such because i'm in this evil 12 story edifice, working.

But afterwards, it begins for me too! (The rest of the band is already at it, driving to the studio right now, listening to Ugly Kid Joe, having a good time.. bastards).

It should be good, we've been looking forward to this for such a long time! The only reason i've got a job is to save money to pay for this, and now we're there! Wow! I wonder how long it's going to take before it comes out? Hmm.. we still have to design a cover and find out about pressing and printing and all that jazz..

The idea is, that the C.D is going to be so good, that someone with lots of money is going to listen to it and decide to give us lots of their money (which they have lots of) and pay for everything.

We're recording these tracks.

1. SSFD (The enemy unseen)
2. Sheep
3. 80's Lovin
4. No Holds Barred
5. It's Irrelevant
6. Pretty Punk Ditty
7. Gone
8. Get Up Stand Up


Sex Appeal..

Ah, yes, so we're gonna hang out at the city and pretend to be big rockstars, i just looked at the clock, it's on 11:11, and yeah we're gonna pick up lots of hoes cuz they'll be like, all over us, cuz we're rock royalty and stuff. We're recording at a studio near china town, so maybe we can go to that restaurant where you can eat food off a naked woman, and then we'll snort lines of cocaine off her back too! Wow! Rock stars are cool! I'm a rock star! I'm cool!

Look at Mr.Roth here..

Is he cool? YES!

Does he get lots of chicks? YES! Is he rich? YES!

Was he just having fun? YES!

Did he start off by recording an e.p or cd or something when he was young? YES!

Is he old and decrepid now? YES!

Does that matter? NO!

Why?

Because it's ROCK AND ROLL!!!!

Hahah, i remember how they laughed, they all laughed, when we said we were going to start a band even though we didn't know how to play instruments.. Now who's laughing?! HUH?! ARE YOU MOTHERFUCKER?!

NO, YOU'RE FUCKING NOT!

YOU WANNA KNOW WHY?! CUZ WE'RE THE SHIT!

FUCK! WE'RE THE SHIT!!

Watch out, cuz SSFD is after your ass y'all...

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Here's some funny links for my friends to go to :

http://www.designboom.com/trash/bse.html
http://www.worldbeardchampionships.com/
http://www.danyboy.com/
http://www.bastardnetwork.com/ <- For Jeff & Austin, Made by Adam ex Hassle Brigade
http://members.optusnet.com.au/sammo/vids/ <-- Paris Hilton Sex Vid 4 Austin

Enjoy!

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Haha, I like this picture, it's so aussie.

Ok, so, yesterday we had a domestic.

Stixx fucked up.

Badly.

He smoked Al's pot when Allan specifically asked him not to, not only did he ask him not to (that morning) but he also put the pot away in his room so Stixx wouldn't smoke it.

So what does Stixx do?

He goes through Allans room and smokes it.

And then, as if that's not rude enough, after we get over that dispute, i find that 3 strings on my guitar are broken and so is the input jack, which i had fixed and someone has now put together with sticky tape, i went feral, i was soo pissed off, i mean, i've been in a bad mood all week, but that just cut it, it makes me angry just to type about it!
So i went out the back and smashed up a chair and some bottles (i had to smash something) which is better than punching a hole in the wall I think.. yeah and also, Stixx used Al's drums, which Allan also made a point of letting Stixx know not to do...

Stixx said sorry and then told us he doesnt know why he does these things and he knows they're wrong and that he's just fucked in the head etc..

Fine, i'll accept that.

Once.

If anything like the above ever happens, again, he is out of my house, because he breached our trust and that shit is wrong. I've learnt my lesson, I give people one chance, Stixx is lucky cuz he got 3 in one day, but i'm not gonna let somone screw me over while they play the victim game.

Everytime i think of the recording, i get depressed because I know that it is up to Stixx to pay his share so we can release it, and i just don't see him getting that money.. he reckons he has no reason not to get a job now (cuz his surgery got delayed), well, he better put his money where his mouth is, because i don't think i can handle someone at my house unemployed for any more than a month, i don't want to go crazy, and shit like that drives me crazy, but as i said, and as Homer once said "I'm never gonna let that happen again!".

Now i'm upset.. i've gotta get over it.. oh i pray Stixx gets a job.. my future depends on it.. i tell him all the bloody time and it goes like this :

Pablo : Get a job, blah blah blah!

Stixx : I know

Pablo : So?

Stixx : So you keep on repeating yourself, i already know ok?

Pablo : But you've known for 6 months.

Stixx : Well i've been having a tough time.

Pablo : You're not having a tough time now.

Stixx : You don't understand...

Pablo : I understand that you don't do shit.

Stixx: Back off.

Pablo: You fucking back off, do something cunt.

Stixx : JUST FUCK OFF YOU KEEP ON REPEATING YOURSELF!!!


Pablo : I KNOW! CUZ YOU DON'T FUCKING LISTEN!!

Stixx : SO FUCK OFF!! *Deep breath* Look, i know i need to get a
job, you don't need to keep on telling me, i'll get one o.k?

Pablo : When?

Stixx : Sometime.

Pablo : Sometime when?

Stixx : Fuck off Pablo..

Pablo : I'm not going to stop till you get a job.

Stixx : Well i better get a job then.

Pablo : So are you gonna get one?

Stixx : We'll see..

Pablo : *Anger*

Stixx : Look, just back off ok, there's shit you don't understand, i'm depressed, my life is so hard, you don't have it tough like me. (Sitting around doing nothing smoking bongs having parents pay the rent)

Pablo : Fuck off with your bullshit victim excuses.

Stixx : FUCK OFF! RAAAAH! MOTHERFUCKER!! DIEEEE!!!

Pablo : GET A JOB AND I WILL!!

Stixx : I'll get a job when i can!!!

Pablo : And when is that?!

Stixx : I don't know!

Pablo : But you can get a job now!

Stixx : FUCK OFF!!!


So on and so on and so on and so on... this continues on and on..
does he not understand how important this band is? or the fact that the very reason he's depressed is that he doesn't have a job? He's had it just as tough as anyone else. Why is he special? He better get a job, i swear, or i'll go nuts. *Sigh*!

Ok i'm going now. .. i think i'm going to print this and give it to Stixx, he'll probably get upset. haha.

"That's just not Hip-Hop"



Wha....

I'm so out of it right now.. i'm hungry and tired, big weekend, here's the breakdown..

Friday : After work, met up with Allan, went to Sydney where we caught up with Clay, Dennis, Austin, Richard & Richards at the Strawberry Hills hotel in the city.

Had a few drink and a big juicy steak and got a massage off a random girl. 3 minute angels.

Went to the Gaelic, and eagerly awaited the mighty Hilltop Hoods, sik, the first few bands were a bit dodgy but by the time hilltop got on, i was up the front dancing my ass off and so was the whole of upstairs and downstairs, it went off bra!

"Some serious underground aussie hip hop shit y'all! Y'know wat im sayin'?"

.. There was these dudes "battling" it out at the front (rapping back and forth a la eminem), one of the rappers got too excited and started dissing this guy who just went up and punched him in the face and it was great, "It's just freestyle.." he was saying.

It was funny. Then the cops showed, there was at least 40 of them, including the tactical squad, i know cuz i counted them. They were after some other dudes fighting, there was a bit of a scuffle, some cops got sprayed with mace, and i heard that one got stabbed and someone got thrown down the stairs of central, we just watched it all happen and laughed, especially at the cops that got mace in their eyes (how do they like it?!).

"That's just not hip hop"..

Saturday - I woke up wasted.. umm, lay about for a long time, then er.. oh, i was trying to figure out something to do all day, it was hard cuz we don't have a car, and we're lazy. We decided that staying at home would be cool if we made some music & took some speed, so we did that.

We recorded "Take It Easy" a rap song. That entertained us for a while.. Shazza showed up with Meredith & Jess & Chris & Chrissie, i think i just stayed up talking crap to them all night.

Personally, I hate speed, i think it's the shittest drug, it's usually a rip off, makes you talk crap, you grind your teeth, and coming down sux, and then when you have a bong to even it out, you end up in a weird headspace that takes like 2 days to get over...

So i didn get any sleep on Saturday.
On Sunday we went shopping at Aldi, and we got shitloads of food, now our fridge has food! It's incredible.

Clay came over as well, to check out our new song, which doesn't even have a name yet, maybe we should come up with a name...

It's too much..

It's just too much, i can't do it, i'm not a journalist, i'm not a detective, i'm not a psychic, there's just way too much stuff out there, and everything has another side.. i think i'm going horizontally, waste of time, out instead of in, but i'm curious, but there's no point, self discovery.. umm.. there's the harmonic concordance / convergence this saturday & a worldwide lunar eclipse, is that dissinformation? False hopes shattered, or true hopes fulfilled? Is anything even real?

Stewart Swerdslow is a con artist? Or is that dissinformation? Montauk isn't real.. or too real? if i knew, would it matter? i can't change it, or am i playing right into the game.. oh man... i need to take some time off...
Is ignorance bliss? what difference does it make to know or to not know? protection? can something you're not aware of harm you? i think so, but what if i can't affect it, whatever doesn't kill us can only make us stronger? Are we an ostrich with it's head in the sand? or an ostrich too smart to add energy to their games.. if thought creates what we focus on, then can it create alternate realities/dimensions if we focus on them? do they exist now? does it matter? Probably not.. but maybe, but maybe not....

Is complacency bad? or good? peace, love and light is unbalanced. Too boring. So we want balance yeah? We? Is there a We? Is it all dependant on me or on the mass, it's both right? I affect the mass.. is there a critical mass? Have we reached it? or are we being told that we have so that we don't? What if the monarchy really are a bunch of evil reptiles? That run the planet? Are movies hints? is "V" real? Why am i even thinking about these things? Why can't i stop? What is the significance of things? Is a little thing such as a ladybug or a rainbow significant? or does it only carry the significance we attach to it? or is it the significane that we can perceive or be aware of at the time that is real? is there a cosmic significance or purpose? why is it that when i get close to something i think is right or comfortable with what i know, something else comes and completely stuffs me up? ...

Maybe my brain is broken... it probably is.. because i always forget everything.

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Largest Solar Flare Ever Recorded

04-Nov-2003

A massive solar flare saturated X-ray detectors onboard GOES satellites for 11 minutes. The last time such a thing happened was in 2001. That flare was classified as an X22--the biggest ever. This one was even bigger. It was almost certainly the biggest flare ever recorded. "This solar flare was the largest I have ever seen" said Dr. Ernest Hildner, director of the NOAA/NASA Space Weather Center.

Does that have any significance? That the flare was aimed squarely at earth? (It was)..

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"When people choose to experience mental uncertainty, it is a choice they make to allow for their search into other realities. It is not wrong, it is just another possibility. " - Kirael

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We had a big rainbow at the front of our house yesterday, it was a complete arc and it was really pretty, my dad came over for a bit, he's going to Cambodia (what's with him and war countries?).

Maybe he'll go to Afghanistan next.

So, we had band prac and we sucked because Stixx doesn't know how sound works or how to use amps and he kept on feedbacking and sounding crap and yelling at me when i tried to fix it, he always wants it so loud, dick, now he can't smoke for 2 months cuz he's getting surgery on his nose because it's crap but i don't reckon he can keep it up, but he'll have to cuz otherwise his face will be stuffed.

I feel really hopeless right now, probably cuz i can't get any answers and i know that even if i did they wouldn't matter, so i'm quitting my job as a truth junkie/addict because i don't think i care at the moment, it's just way too much, way too deep, way too crazy and people are going to start thinking i'm insane if i keep it up. In something completely unrelated : I'm going to go see Hilltop Hoods at the Metro tonite! Sik, Aussie, Rap.

Kylie just sent me a message, it sez :

"STOP READING THE INTERNET PABLO ITS NOT HEALTHY DUDE"

I think i agree..

Ok, so i quit, if i can, i choose to quit, i'm going to start looking up websites about funny chinese signs that don't make sense and nice pictures of cats and stuff. Instead of sites like these..

QUANTUM FORCE HEADQUARTERS
INTELLIGENCE LINKS
{...Founding organizational member of the "METAVERSAL ALLIANCE of SOVEREIGN TIMEWAVES" -- M.A.S.T. ... }

I'm not crazy (that's what crazy people say) i'm just open minded and curious, but what's the point of finding out that there could be divergent timelines in space? What good, does that knowledge serve me? I might as well learn the name of all the X-Men backwards, that would probably have more value anyway!

The truth will set you free, but the search for the truth will completely fuck your brain up.

If i'm already free, do i need truth? how do i know if i'm free? How real is the Matrix? Science has validated and proven that it's real, so what do we do with that knowledge?

I should probably not put this shit up on my blog but i don't care, strength comes with being vulnerable, so here's my prayer..

"God, this is an honest, and fair request : whatever you are, whoever you are, please help me find my own truth and cruise with it... frankly i just want the band to do well and to have a fun life, i'd like to know what's REALLY going on too, but just cuz i'm curious, i'm not liking all these doom and gloom scenarios that i've been reading about, but if they're real then please help me prepare for them, also, i'd like to be in my sweet spot in life, and would appreciate it if you made it blatantly obvious what it is you want me to know if you ever want me to know something.

If you're not real, then please disregard this message. Thanks!.."

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Austin & Al don't have any money to cover Stixx's recording, and i don't want to pay it cuz i don't think i'll see that money back, so we're stuffed.

"Stixx has never paid for anything.. not the first recording not the
practices we went to. not fuel to get to the gigs. i cant help at all. stixx
will be the same till the end of time. to make money you need money we have
no money therefore we cant make money." - Austin

It's true.. *Insert big "help me please" sigh in here*.

Send your donations, care of Pablo Murdoch, 16 Melita Street, Cambridge Park, NSW, Australia 2747.

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A comment



Wow! Someone left a comment on my blog!






"Lisa", seems to think that i'm "totally twisted" (that's chickspeak for hot), and she wants me to e-mail her, and her e-mail address is.. "sweet_sugar_angel@hotmail.com".

Girls with e-mail adresses like "Sweet Sugar Angel" are usually really naughty, if you know what i mean. Cuz like, they wanna seem all sweet and innocent, but when the doors close.. SLAM! You don't come out the same..

.. she probably lives in Istanbul or something stupid... but maybe she lives in Penrith, Australia and looking for a man! :) .. i'm so stupid...

It's probably Austin.

Ok, so, yesterday was very uneventful, tho I did find out that Delta Goodrem doesn't have cancer and that it's just a stunt, you can thank our producer for that one! (The bastard also got with Penne from life support!).

Yeah, so, Kansas (Texas) and Troy got into a muck around fight but it got out of hand and then they got very serious and started hitting each others bodies and stuff and it was funny, until it wasn't, at which point it wasn't funny anymore, i said ..

"Guys, can you like, leave the room, because the tension is just too much for me.."

..to which they both said..

"Grr, snarl, grrr."

.. so i don't think that helped, because they then hit each other a bit more and then they stood there, staring at each other very seriously, and like, neither of them could back down, cuz they'd be pussies then, right? Or so it goes, but the real man, he would've just laughed afterwards, shook the other dudes hand, and said "Maaate!"...

At least they didn't hit the wall.... it seems like it's an Aussie institution that if you're angry, you punch the wall, probably cuz the walls here are made out of cardboard and it's an easy way to look tough and angry... if i was gonna smash something, i'd break the t.v. or a window, anything with glass in it really.. glass is fun to smash...

Stupid customers keep on interrupting me while I try to update my blog..

That's a bit rude of me, to say they're all stupid, but a large percentage are.. but then, I guess they don't know much about car loans, so i'm imposing my expectations on them.. at the same time, they're still idiots.. especially today.


Beautiful..


Ok, so that's it! Oh, another few things happenned yesterday, first off, i found a tattoo with a lizard in my pocket, then I went home and Troy was wearing a shirt with the same lizard on it. I also found a ladybug on my bag, and it was a really pretty one, not one of those half assed ladybugs, and on my way home, there was this girl on the train singing all the way home and she was really pretty and she just sang, i don't know whether she was crazy, or really cool. There was this dickhead fully perving on her, he had a pathetic lost puppy face on him, then he blew a kiss at her when she wasn't looking, and because she didn't respond (how would she know?!!) he pulled a face and looked at her with this full hateful look, there was also the old man perving on her and i wanted to bash them both, but I couldn't and I'm probably just as bad for perving on all 3 of them, still but.. guys are crap, but so are chicks, we're both so crap, I like the ones that admit they're crap, they're the cool ones, like me, I'm crap, that's why I'm cool.

Mormon Mormon Mormon!
Elder Elder Elder!..




I've been spending all morning trying to figure out how to get people to come to this blogg, cuz i reckon it's better than many others and well, i want people to read it cuz otherwise what's the point!? So like, if you're reading this, then read more! and tell your friends!

So, what happenned yesterday?..

We had 2 mormons come over at the same time that Sam the token black dude came over.

So we had this big discussion about God and I got pretty worked up but not in a bad way, I tried to get one of them to read some of my material, he said he wouldn't, so i told him that next time, when he tries to get someone to read his material, they won't, and it's true.

I asked him :

"What's more important, finding the truth, or being a mormon?"

And he couldn't answer that, but then Tim Kovax came and saved his ass by saying ..

"He's found the truth and that's why he's a mormon".

Which was lucky for the mormon cuz otherwise, if he was a computer, he would've crashed.

My point is, how can they be so egotistical to claim that mormon is the only truth? It might be a path to a certain degree of truth, but there's no way anyone can claim to have "the truth" because truth is infinite, and it is personal, only YOUR truth is real to you, just like only MY truth is real to me.

I tried to convey that to them, that God is personal and we don't need a middleman such as the Mormon church to get to God. How can a person in a desserted island find God?

Then I asked, "What's the meaning of life?" and he couldn't answer that, and then I said "Love", and he couldn't top that.

As if you could, i challenge anyone reading this to give me a better answer, and i don't mean romantic love, i mean LOVE.

So he got kind of edgy and was like "Oh a happy life, where you do good things" and i'm like "Love covers that".. I said "As far as im concerned, saying you're mormon or this or that, is putting yourself under a label and in a box, what about saying: I am a human being, and I live in Love."

By the way, as far as i'm concerned, these are bullshit arguments that just waste time, because we all know that love is a good thing and the world is getting hardcore ass-raped at the moment and we need to discuss how to fix it instead of discussing if it even exists!

So anyways, that happenned, so the second hardcore theological discussion in my house this week, then we had a band prac and that's about it i think!

I was upset this morning because Stixx doesn't have the recording money and i don't think it's fair that i have paid for all the equipment that he uses plus i have to pay for his recording now too, it's like he gets to ride for free.. but then i thought, maybe that's good because if he doesn't put money in, he can't argue with us about it either. And we can control how the business side of things run without him fucking it up, but i'm still undecided.

P.S : I found a lizard in my room yesterday, I thought it interesting considering neither Allan nor I have seen a lizard anywhere around our house before, then I find one in my room.. after all this talk about reptiles...

*insert creepy music here*

Some Trippy Shit..

Hi! Feeling allright today, tho i had a shitty morning! Maybe because i Reikid myself last night (which i don't usually do because i usually don't believe it's going to achieve anything, tho i know it's exactly that attitude that stops it from working) see, this morning i woke up and my bag was open and there was $5 missing from my wallet, and i got real pissed cuz i reckon either Stixx took it, or it was a ghost, and i find it more believeable that Stixx did, i hope he didn't however.
Because that ain't cool.

I sez to him, I sez.. "one chance only"...

If i've learnt something this year is.. "Trust no-one" and that if something sucks, or you're getting bad vibes about something, then face up to it and get rid of it, don't let people take advantage of you repeatedly in the hope that they will stop it or learn.

See, i'm not doing anyone any favors by helping them, if anything, i'm working against them, people need to help themselves, be responsible for themselves, and cut all the fucking self defeatist excuses out! *Sighhh* anyways, moving on from that topic..

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Yesterday i met a dude called "Sam" who's this black guy from N.Y..

He travels around the world and raps and shit, he was scoring from Kansas at my house when I walked in and started tripping on everyone about the fact that NASA has recently crashed their "Galileo" space probe into the orbit of Jupiter, expecting it to just burn up.
The problem with this scenario is that the Galileo is powered by plutonium and iridium among other things.
The fear was, that crashing the Galileo into Jupiter might cause it to compress so much that it will begin a nuclear chain reaction, the odds of this were very small, however the chance was there but NASA went ahead anyway.. Now this shit is showing up..



See the big motherfucker black spot in Jupiter? That's some scary shit! Here's some more pics (all with links)..






So.. they've pretty much sent this nuclear warhead into Jupiter and and now we just have to wait and watch, it could cause a never ending chain reaction and turn Jupiter into a Sun, or it could just turn Jupiter all black. I don't know, I'm no astronomer, but I know when something scares the shit out of me.. and this does.
At the same time, i can't do anything about it and i doubt it's going to affect us for a while.. But who the fuck do these people think they are?! Fucking with something as big as Jupiter is a big deal, not something you do on a whim, it could eventually fuck up the whole solar system, tho i doubt it.. but fuck, you never know now.

Sooo.. i've come home, ranting all this shit, just walked in and got right into it, and this dude is standing there, and after i was done i looked at him and said..

"Sorry man! you're probably spinning out that i've just walked in and started ranting this shit"

and he goes..

"No man, that's full on! They planned all that, the Galileo.."

and i'm like..

"What the fuck.."

and he's like..

"Have you heard of David Icke man, that's some scary shit, think of this "Queen e-Lizard-birth.."

and i went..

"HOLY FUCK!!!! I WAS JUST THINKING ABOUT THAT!!"

.. and i was!!! I really was!! I'd been walking on my way home that afternoon thinking "Queen e-lizard-birth.." and then he says it!
How's that for coincidence? or the odds that he would mention David Icke and all this really really harcdore shit that i've been thinking and talking about.. the funny thing is, he brought up so many things that i've been telling my friends for months, that they even started believing it.. I think that coincidences have a way of pointing you to the "Current" truth (truth is constant.. yet is always subject to change, and there's many types of truth anyway, it depends on persepctive, but more importantly in the "now") .. so that you know you're on the right path, and man, i've just had so many coincidences over this whole thing lately.. too bad i can't type all about it even, it's just way too much, and it's all pretty meaningless anyway, yet at the same time sooo important.. always the paradox... Anyways, his name is "Sam", which is even cooler, because for some reason i've always wanted to meet a Sam..

And now we have a token black guy! with the accent and everything!!

Lots of partying this weekend!

Friday was Halloween, had a huge party at my place which Sophie organized and yeah, very big, around 200 people went and we all got dressed up, i had a mask that made me look like an accountant, Al & Stixx were zombies, I don't know what Austin was but it was weird, and there was heaps of chicks in really skimpy outfits!
On the left we have Fatty dressed as Silent Bob!

I was out of it most of the night! We had a smoke machine in the house and we used it a lot and yeah, Rachel didn't like the smoke, but it was probably less smoke than what she sucks down on bongs all the time! Dennis got pissed and kicked in the fence..

FUCK! I can't believe i just did that!

Kylie got me some hot chocolate and i just went to drink it but i missed my mouth and got it all over my shirt and had to go clean it but while i was drying it with the hand dryer i tried to dry the neck bit and i stuck my neck onto the metal bit of the hand dryer and burnt my neck as well.
ARGH! I hate being shit!
Anyway ive cleaned it now but i smell like chocolate.

.. Ok anyways, yeah my party was good, should do it again sometime, we played but we sucked but thats allright. Oh and i met a white husky! She followed me home on friday 31st (Halloween) on my way from work! It was like this wolf chose me, and she was soo beautiful, but a bit dirty. But she was great, hung out for a while, and then she dissappeared. Aww.



On Saturday was the famed "National Beer Day", and that was a good party too, there was this game "Bouncer" that Austin and Jeff played where they had to run at each other with big plastic balls and that was pretty funny, umm, i got drunk and was obnoxious all night, but that's what i do, im good at that, being obnoxious.
Umm.. so er.. yeah hung out with Benji and Scrotes and Simo at some points.. eww i smell like chocolate.. umm.. yeah and it was all good, there was heaps of people from Bombshell there, & there was jelly wrestling and stuff too, i got a ride home with a guy called Kurk who was friends with a chick called Stephanie who was this chick that Stixx got with.
On Sundya we just lay about all day, cleaned a bit and thats about it, and we had a band practice, that was actually really good!






For more pictures and Stories about this weekend! - Letters to God! By Steve Austin.