It's Real.

We've been trained to dismiss anything about a New World Order as a crazy conspiracy theory but it's happenning right now and it's not crazy, just watch the news with a bit of skepticism and do a bit of research and it's pretty easy to see..

I think the next 15 years are going to be very interesting.. I really hope i'm wrong about all this shit however.

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Recording..

Is going great! Stayed at the studio till 11:30 yesterday, we got "Get Up Stand Up" and "No Holds Barred" and they sounds monstrous! This CD, the more i think about it, the more i'm sure it's going to blow everyone away.

We've been discussing how to sell the music, and one of the ideas is to not press cd's at all but to charge people $5 to $10 to download the album and then charge them an extra $2 for the artwork, it would save us a lot of production costs and it makes life easier for us, but then again I like the idea of our cd at the shops. Clay said this was the same problem that happenned when vinyl went to tape and then tape to cd and that we have to be a step ahead and play it smart and I agree, so yeah, if you know how we can sell music online let me know!

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Love backwards is Evol.

Stixx went to So Hi's (his ex) yesterday, the fool!
I swear he makes some dumb moves, and he told her that he'd slept with Kristy (Dennis's housemate) which didn't go down too well. He took off with Clay's key to get into the studio too and we had to wait for him for ages. I wanted to have a go at him but i didn't, tho i did ask him why he was such a sucker for punishment, because like, he always goes back for more, to get fucked around by people that are SO small in the cosmic scale of things, i don't like it when he fucks over the people that actually matter in favour of petty people that just want to hold him back. I think this happens with a lot of people, and it sucks, Stixx is cool, but there's so many cool people out there that get fucked over and become cynical and sour because of petty people that have used and abused them. It sucks.

Pablo sez : Stay true to yourself, don't burn your bridges (unless you want to, if that's the case i suggest you burn them so badly that they can never be rebuilt, otherwise it's not worth it), remember your roots, and never go backwards!

NEVER!

If a situation is over, it's over, no point in going back to waste energy on a course in hopelessness.

I'm just as bad with many things I know, but i won't ever let a girl play energy games with me, not unless i wanna play too, because it's just a waste of time and energy. Going out with a girl to me, is like an investment, and it's gotta pay off, i mean that in a good way, it's gotta be a co-creative relationship, not a co-dependent one.

Co-dependent relationships are soul destroying, and extremely dangerous because they hide in a love facade, and before you know it, you have no friends and no life because you fucked them all off for your partner who's probably just gonna fuck you in the end anyway. (They've already fucked you out of your friends and freedom, why wouldn't they fuck you again?). If a person you're with takes away your power/energy, or they drain you, then they're nothing but evil parasitic vampires that must be disposed of. Harsh but true, people that are true will empower you and support your independance and freedom. That's what i think anyway.

I've lost some good friends cuz of bad boyfriends/girlfriends. It sucks.

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Work

Today is my last day at the Auto department, i'm leaving the Formula 1 team, it sucks cuz i won't have Kylie around to ask the same questions over and over to, and i won't be able to be as sloppy with my adherance to schedule. Which is crap, cuz i'm all over the shop all the time, and often late.

But, the way i see it, is that it's a change, and any change is good, regardless of how bleak it might look or how scary it might feel, change is the desired state, there are often things in the horizon we can't see, so we have to walk forward into the change, blind but with faith..

I only hope i'm wise enough to follow my own advice!