Quick thought,



I don't know what I want.

I certainly don't know what's best for me. I don't know who I am entirely and I don't really know where I'm headed.

However, I know what I don't want. I know what isn't good for me. I know who I am not, and I know where I don't want to end up.

Isn't it funny that we can make more sense of the negative than the ambiguous positive??

.....

Do I want a girlfriend?? I don't know. Maybe. I get lonely sometimes. But do I need that in my life? .. Do I want to run a business or buy a house? I don't know! I haven't done it yet. How the hell should I know??

I guess I'll try it and see..

Some people seem to know what they want. To me, those people are crazy. (or maybe I'm jealous).

I don't want to be lonely or bored for extended periods. But time and time again I've been shown that chance seems to decide what's best for me much better than I could have known for myself. So I let it go. I try to do what feels right today and not think about some elusive outcome or future. If I do, I get sick and depressed.

This conditioning of -knowing where you're headed- is all wrong. It's all about knowing where you ARE.

Of course it's probably unwise to take this philosophy too far, but isn't anything taken too far a little kooky? (sometimes deliciously so).