This is my self discovery/growth phase.

I am wrapping up who I have been and who I want to be.
Its my quarter life wrap up.

The next month of this blog will be very introspective, and kind of gay.
I apologize to my two readers.

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Who am i?

I'm Pablo. Pablo Andres. It means "Small Warrior". I think this is accurate. I'm small. But not short. I have scruffy hair. I play with it a lot but get nowhere. Its a source of contempt and elation. I like to dress with an individual style, but not an outlandish one. I have had many experiences, and met many people.. I've been many people, and many places. I am masculine, and i'm not docile, but im drawn to effeminate things and bright colors. I gush over things. I like to wonder. I have a short sight when it comes to time. I don't sleep enough. I am active at night. I don't change my underwear as much as I should. I am loud, but im not a loud person. I stand up for what is just, and will fight if I need to. I am strong spiritually but get lost easily.. I am easily affected by energies around me, by others moods, by environments, by the weather. I am very airy. I am drawn to so many things, but I dont seek to specialize, I just like to see what things are about, then move on. I am extremely curious. I want to know what is going on everywhere, and must know what I'm not meant to. I like to experiment. I don't really like challenges, but I like it when I overcome them. I am easily lost but never far gone. I lose focus easily. I make an impression on people. I lead when I need to, or when no one else will. I don't like to work, I tire easily. Repetition destroys me. I like music, I like music a lot, but i dont take it seriously enough. I have had many mystical experiences. I feel that im special, but know that everyone else does too, yet cling to the belief of a star.. I've always been protected. I like to create, anything and everything. I am bossy and demanding, but only out of ignorance of others perceptions. I really want what's best for everyone. I have a lot of friends. I use the internet more than I should, it amazes and enthralls me. I like to read but can't stick to one book. Ive lived the cliche's of relationships and loved them. The Barbie, the girl I loved who left with the best friend, the girl I loved/hated who wouldnt leave me alone but who subconsciously didnt want to leave me alone. I can make really bad first impressions, when im weak or dark I can be awful. I am transparent, and sensitive. I magnify the energies around me. I pick up on energies. I can quickly think things to the point of no sens. I understand feedback loops and cycles. I have connections to the Mayans and have done pilgrimages to energetic centers on both sides of the world. I once jumped through a window.

what are some things you love about yourself?

I will fight, im opinionated, im perceptive, i can sense magic, im in tune with forces, ive spoken to god and met jesus in mexico (it sounds odd ok, you had to be there), i like pretty girls and give it a shot, im clever, i am sensible, i create warm spaces for people to play in, i have amazing incredible friends, my friends think im amazing and incredible too but i dont understand why, i travel, i write, i create, i have good aesthetic awareness, i can get along with a large range of people, i have wisdom, ive seen auras, i find incredible books, i collect wonderful things and share them with people, i receive messages, i wear nicely colored clothes, im good at sex, im not vulgar or crude, i get things, im grumpy, i try my best to harmonize situations, im a catalyst and glue, my grandparents love me, i am both practical and idealistic, and not, i move forward, i dont try to hurt people, im happy go lucky, ive messed with big forces and stayed intact, i have an insatiable intellectual curiosity, im open minded, im curious, im easy to get along with, im anti establishment, i have a built in distrust of authority, i care for the world, im interested in crazy topics as much as in normal ones, i have excellent taste in music, i keep a clean room, i go to concerts, i run to the front, ive started bands and made songs, but not lately, im naughty, im mischevious, i have nice complexion, i can be good looking, i speak spanish and english, i have many families, im good with money, im not selfish, i sense coincidences, i have a childs spirit, im mature when needed, i make nice art without trying, but not as often as id like, i can write good melodies, im employable, i have morals and ethics, my birthday is a significant palindrome, my foot is a whale.

(Update) I can fit my whole fist in my mouth, I get a fat belly during the cold seasons, winter depresses me. I think too much. I like black tea, and I don't like people that tell people that they like black tea or other inconsequential little factoids about themselves. I like music with individuality, charisma, energy, charm, groove and feeling. I like to feel sometimes that im a che guevara or zack de la rocha, other times I like to feel like im Sal Paradise or Sebastian from the never ending story. My birthday is a palindrome and I really like that. I dont like that Im older than I look and I try to avoid telling people my age. I always think im going to do more than I actually do but I always end up doing more than I thought. My grandmother is religious, my grandfather is scientific. I like quirky girls but not crazy girls. I like to push things but I'll be the first to stop it when they get too far or out of balance.. I'm chaotic good, meaning I can be sneaky or mischievous, maybe even devious, but never when I see that it's going to do harm. I can vacillate between really ugly and really attractive, sometimes I look like a mongoloid troll, others I look like a dashing young man. How I think affects how I look. I've seen auras, my great aunt use to see auras. My mum picks up on things, I use to laugh at her until I started picking up on things myself. I am somewhat of an elitist when it comes to company, sometimes its helpful, sometimes its negative. I have sporadic inferiority complexes. I like to play dumb and annoying, I like to shout and get angry about things. I like being cranky. I think its funny.. you know, this thing is getting cheesy now... I just wanted it to be a log of who I am, or think I am, but now it sounds like Im advertising for a date. So i'll stop.